i cant open up to people ever. idk why but it’s always made me feel weak and i hate feeling vulnerable. maybe bc every time i do it blows up in my face. but anyways eveytgime i say i wanna kms i’m not joking and i think everyone thinks i am even tho i say it like once in a blue moon dead seriously. i don’t even think any of my friends realized how close i was one day

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i cant open up to people ever. idk why but it’s always made me feel weak and i hate feeling vulnerable. maybe bc every time i do it blows up in my face. but anyways eveytgime i say i wanna kms i’m not joking and i think everyone thinks i am even tho i say it like once in a blue moon dead seriously. i don’t even think any of my friends realized how close i was one day

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