I am 25 and when I was in primary school my half sister would usually play with my Willy and do all kinds of sexual things with me . I was about 7/8 . Being so young I went with whatever I was instructed or told. I still see her at all family meetings and now that I know what actually happened to me I’m disgusted. I don’t trust woman and don’t let them touch or come close to me . I’m gay and I think that might be the reason. I don’t know , I just wanna die.

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I am 25 and when I was in primary school my half sister would usually play with my Willy and do all kinds of sexual things with me . I was about 7/8 . Being so young I went with whatever I was instructed or told. I still see her at all family meetings and now that I know what actually happened to me I’m disgusted. I don’t trust woman and don’t let them touch or come close to me . I’m gay and I think that might be the reason.

I don’t know , I just wanna die.

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