Hey, I’m Damon, and I have ppl that don’t except me… school has been hard, I’m in rotc and I am under a lot of pressure because some teenager had the audacity to run up on my momma and I couldn’t do anything, all I did was yell at him and say that he wasn’t gonna talk to my momma like that, I was stressed and I locked myself in the bathroom and cried… my mom is a wonderful person… she didn’t deserve that… should I try harder…

I used to think a man was watching me everywhere I went. I live out in the woods and I’d have an irrational fear of his eyes watching me through my window at night. I lived like that for 2 years and sometimes things would happen. Our property was in the middle of nowhere but someone stole a chainsaw from our shed and I couldn’t sleep for 4 days. Another time my mom joked about thinking she heard someone ring the doorbell twice at night. She had no idea hearing that triggered me even worse. Another time I found a ballon hanging from a tree and I was certain it was a “sign” cuz I asked how else it got there. I slowly lost my mind and brought out a knife and tried asking the man I thought was watching me to kill me one night out in the woods. I was 12 and it was hard. We moved and I feel better but how do I get rid of the irrational fears like this I get??

• June 30, 2023