For the longest time i liked this girl. She liked me too. We talked for a long time and shared so many stories and had a really deep connection with eachother. I was in love with this girl. One day she stopped texting me out of nowhere. It made me have a lot of emotions over the next week and i wasnt thinking straight. Over the weekend i asked a different girl out and she said yes. Later that night the first girl reached out to me. She asked me who the girl i was dating is, she apparently had heard it from a friend. Over the next couple days i learned that the first girl had been going through some traumatic stuff and i didnt once reach out to check on her. Now im in a relationship i got into while not thinking straight and in love with this other girl. The first girl is constantly crying every night and she used to be the happiest person i knew and its all my fault because i assumed the worst and cut her off and i’ve been so stressed about it and i need help.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023