CW/TW I cheated on my first boyfriend. I was very depressed and I felt so alone. This person came along that was even more flawed than me, and it felt good to have his attention. It was during quarantine, so we talked over video and audio calls. He used me when I was so vulnerable. When he knew I was not in my right mind and I couldn't make decisions for myself. I felt like I couldn't stop, or else he would commit sewer side. I broke up with my boyfriend because I was so guilty, and I've never told anyone. I'm so scared that people will find out and hate me. I just got the courage to block him yesterday. What if he tells people because I stopped talking to him?

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023