Cheating on my boyfriend is my biggest regret. I Honestly didn’t even think I was cheating while I was bc I was really drunk but I knew after I fucked up and I regret it a lot. Why does this have to be 350 characters that’s so stupid now I have to write bullshit down here to even send this in. Blah blah blah. I’m hungry I want some food and cake.

I have a lot of regrets. But I guess the biggest one I got is choosing to be alone. I’ve been hurt a lot, my trust thrown away from people who I thought would always be there for me. I never had a girlfriend or really any friends at all. I’m an outcast and it’s hard when most of the people you know in your high school put a label on you and that’s what your known for. I get I’m not the easiest to get along with and that I can be annoying and a sarcastic pr*ck but at least I try. But I’m just tired of seeing people be fake and tired of being used or manipulated just so someone else can be happy. So now whenever I feel like I’m getting close to someone I just start acting like an absolute douche. It’s not that I want to, it’s just that I’m scared. I hate being lonely and alone but if that’s what I gotta do to survive than screw, I may not like it but at least I’m still here.

• December 29, 2022