At my Christian academy. My friend was taken into the office and on the way there one of my male friends pushed me into the bathroom. Told me if I wanted to leave to give him head. I did and he tried to have sex with me before I ran out. Not long after, I was kept locked in a bathroom with him and another male friend, while my other friend was outside keeping the door locked and kept pushing me in. They pulled down my pants and I was forced onto my knees to give him head again. They told me not to tell anyone. I never did. It bothered me so much though and it fucked with how I looked at guys. Flinching, the bad nightmares. Just recently I told my parents and they asked why I never said anything about it. I was 14-15. I was scared. It traumatized me. I’m scared, I’m paranoid. Doesn’t help that my real dad is a child predator. Constantly threatening me. Telling me I can’t call my step dad dad or he will hit me. Forcing me into exposing clothes telling me he paid for it so I have to. I’m still a child in his eyes. I’m 19 btw. He touched me inappropriately and wants me sleeping in the same bed as him. He’s coming up to visit me and wants me to stay in a hotel with him and his friend. I’m scared. I’m in a relationship and I’m just trying to make it work. What do I do with all this trauma? How do I keep it from ruining my relationship? I love this man. It sucks that the first man to break my heart and trust was my dad. Now I just need advice on how to heal.