about 4 months ago my mom made the decision to put my dog down for several reasons, but none of the reasons were good enough. The first one was she isn’t good with other dogs, we only had her. Another was she would run if we let her outside without a leash, we had a long lead for her. There were a couple more but they weren’t important. This dog was my animal soulmate, we had such a strong connection and i loved her to death, she was my baby. The day my mom decided this she told us she was doing it because of the reasons listed, when she really only wanted to get another dog, she always claimed that she would never put her down and if it came to anything like that she would rehome her, well she lied. I was absolutely devastated when it all happened and i still am to this day, it broke my heart watching her life leave her eyes and i’m a different person today because of it. Now I love my mom more than anyone on this planet but I still hate her for what she did, it kills me to come home every day and see the dog that my mom replaced my baby with and i feel absolutely horrible because he did nothing wrong yet it feels wrong loving him and i’ve been ignoring him since the day we got him.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023