⚠️TW⚠️My parents gave me access to the internet at a very young age and I was a very curious child so I ended up discovering p0rn at the age of 5 and became very addicted to watching it I became a very inappropriate kid but was never corrected so didn’t know it was wrong I ended up being sa while I was in my bed sleep by my 9 year old brother when I felt him touching me I woke up and just froze because I was too scared to do anything (I was 12 btw) I now look at my past self in disgust because I liked it I didn’t do anything back because I was too scared but I was fantasizing about it while it happened now I’m 15 and absolutely hate my body and the choices my younger self made I try to forget about it but I can’t I haven’t told anyone but I really need advice

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023