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I kind of wish my dad wasnt around? I know thats horrible to say because im lucky to have a dad in my life but he used to be borderline abusive and went off on me for telling him im trans making me traumatized from loud noises and he even threatened to hit me before i fell to the ground sobbing and begging him to go away. I never realized he actually abused me as a child because i always just thought "wow my dad is so strong he jokingly punched me and now its bruised! I wanna be as strong as him one day." He also throws out the food i buy for myself? Im a very picky eater and im the only picky one in my house hold so i buy my own food with my allowance that i actually eat and im the only one who eats that kind of food but it always goes missing and i just figured someone ate it and lied about it till i caught him throwing it out. He also never tells me when people have made food but always offers to tell me when other people have just so he can avoid telling me. I tell people he just borderline neglective but he abused as a child and told me "good youre getting fat anyway" when i told him i was anorexic :/ so am i wrong for wishing he wasnt in my life?

March 10, 2023

I wake up almost everyday and deal with so much yet so very little. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t want to just off my self. But then I think about my brother and family and friends I’ve met along the way all those people and probably less then 50% actually care. Those less then 50% of people are the only thing that keeps me holding on.

March 9, 2023

My sister is pregnant and hasnt told anyone and has 3 kids but she doesnt take care of my oldest nephew I do bc she thinks hes a burden to her so now I have to and she also is in debt and is so broke she cant afford a house or can afford to pay rent while staying with our family she also stolen money and her boyfriend abuses their kids. Im kinda scared for the baby bc I feel like if the baby is born a girl her dad will do something to her or let his friends do something to her but if its a boy im not as worried but something could still occur. My sister lets him hit her kids and when my youngest nephew was barely 1 when he would cry my sister would end up slapping him and her bf would try to put his hand on my nephews mouth to shut him up bc both of them have little patience and I feel like they would end up hurting her now expected baby.

March 9, 2023

Just after Christmas when I was 13, It was around 5 am and I went up to go get a drink of water. Little did I know I woke up because I heard something, but I was too tired to realize. I opened my door to find my dad passed out in the hallway. He was taken to the hospital and is ok now, but on new years I was told he had cancer. The “secret” part is the fact that a month later I was told by a doctor that he was lucky to survive and him passing out then was when a majority of people drop dead. Even if he fortunately didn’t, it unsettles and bothers me a lot to know. Kinda wish nobody told me that

March 9, 2023

I married a great man. I love him very dearly. He has helped grow so much. He loves me, protects me, supports me takes care of me. He’s everything I once wanted too. He makes me happy. He makes me laugh. He’s a good soul. I cheated on him with my first love recently. He tells to leave my husband but I just can’t do it. I don’t know what to do. Part of me feels like the right thing to do is talk to my husband and tell him the truth but then other days I feel so ashamed and embarrassed of what I did because he doesn’t deserve this. I think about all the things we’ve been through all the beautiful memories we’ve created..everything we’ve built for each other ..our future ..our plans. I think about our families. How heartbroken they’ll feel, I think about my first love’s wife too, she doesn’t deserve this either. … But my first love makes me feel like home. He’s the first thing I think about when I wake up. The last thing I think about when I’m falling asleep. I think about him every second of my days. Even though we don’t talk everyday. Just occasionally. I feel trapped in my own feelings. He was the first man in my life the one I gave everything to. We parted our ways years back not because we didn’t love each other. But because we were so young at the time. And now that we reconnected I know we both feel the same way we did before. Our love never ended. I have this fight between my mind and my heart every day….

March 9, 2023

At around a year into my relationship with my current girlfriend, we had a lot of issues. She was super controlling and jealous, and we would get into screaming matches with each other. I knew I should have left, but I loved her so much and she had saved me from a bad home situation. Her sister had picked up on our fighting, and consoled me whenever she would break up with me over and over and over again. One day, my girlfriend ended up slamming my head into the wall of our bedroom after I didn’t text her back during my shift at work, and she got in her car and left. I was packing my things because she told me she wanted me gone by the time she got back, and her sister came to check up on me. I had realized I developed feelings for her sweet, funny younger (by one year) sister as she took a wet cloth and cleaned the blood from my lip. We got intimate that day. By the time my girlfriend had gotten back, she apologized for everything and begged me to stay, and I did. Her sister completely cut me off after that, and to this day our relationship isn’t near as close as we used to be. I regret what I’ve done, but I still think about her every day, even now as I’m engaged to my girlfriend/ fiancé. I have no idea what I’m supposed to do, I’m 5 years in and I’m so afraid to come out with the truth to my fiancé and her family, should I even do it at this point? My girlfriend and I had quit fighting years ago, but I feel like I’m simultaneously in love with both of them

March 9, 2023

My hopes are generally centered around what has happened in my life, but I just hope to meet a girl that understands me and I hope that she can help me get through life, because I really need someone in my corner right now. So when I was 14, I played baseball and me and my buddy were really close and this was a really important game because it was a state championship. Anyway, me and him got into an argument and I told him to just get away from me and as I did I had to leave to go onto the field, I never knew that the last time I would see my best friend was of him walking away from me sad. As I was up to bat, my buddy was walking away and went to his dads horse trailer and laid underneath it, I guess to think about what just happened, and as he did this, his dad reversed and killed my best friend on the spot. The only way I knew I messed up and when I immediately left the field was when I saw multiple ambulances and fire trucks come flying into the baseball field. When I saw him I literally broke down. That day was the day I killed my best friend and I miss him everyday and regret yelling at him. More recently I just broke up with the girl that saved me from suicide and she said it was because I was too nice, I apologized too much, and I was too controlling because I didn’t like her doing other guys at 1AM. She broke up with me over text on Valentine’s Day and she has been on my mind since. I feel like I always cause problems in this life and I wish that I could just stop the pain. I as a man have been beaten by a girl, I have been forced into sex, and I have been emotionally abused. I have no idea what to do, I am currently 17 and weigh 205, I can deadlift 415 and can bench press 295 and having maxed out my bench press yet. I am about to just give up on this life though, thanks for listening.

March 9, 2023

Question to those who read this: What do I do? My mental health has gotten so low as I have 3 attempts on my life but every time I can’t because I won’t leave my best friend alone. I’ve tried asking for help from my parents but they don’t believe me. They always say “your fine” or “Your alway so happy what makes you feel this way”. My mom and I don’t get along at all. It’s quite clear that I’m not the kid they wanted. They love my younger sister so much more and I’m just the kid in the background who can do house hold work. But even with this I l ok be my little sister. She’s the best thing there is. I’m alone. I don’t know what to do anymore

March 9, 2023

Ok so... I feel like I'm just a s3x toy.. It started when I was about 6 I was playing outside when my "dad" told me to come inside one day (we was home alone and, he was drunk) I said ok and he took me to his room and... You get the idea when my mom found out he go sent to jail and my mom found a new husband but... He does it and I told my mom and all she did was say if he did it again he's out of the house but he keeps on doing it and I don't, wanna say anything to her because I have 3 baby sisters and they need a dad so what should I do? I'm scared of all older man

March 9, 2023

my deepest secret is the fact the reason why im self sabotaging , hurt everyone , and manipulative is because i want to keep my heart for a girl i loved for 5 years . she has been gone for 5 years.

March 9, 2023