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I never think I am enough. Every relationship I am in I either get raped or I get cheated on. I'm so close to just shutting off from the world and/or leaving it. But there's this guy at my work, he's really nice! My best friend embarrassed me in front of him and it was no big deal until she poured ice water on him. He looked at me like it was my fault. The last words he told me were "go k1ll yourself". Apparently he quit the next day, and ever since he's been 'coincidentally' everywhere I go. The laundry mat, grocery store, and even at my doctors office..I don't know what to do..

March 12, 2023

when i was younger (about 10) i had stayed at my great grandmothers house a lot she would baby sit me and i decided to take walks and explore the neighborhood (close to her house) i met a boy, (won’t say his name) who later wanted to “date” me he was 12-13 at the time i didn’t understand what it was but i said yes. he made me do questionable things sometimes like kissing him i didn’t ever understand but he said it made him feel better one day i asked my great grandma if i could go over to his house which she said yeah but he took me to his dads room and told me to take off my clothes and yknow the rest but he said it was because it would help him. i didn’t know it was bad at the time or know what it was but i’ve never told anyone to this day.

March 11, 2023

Toxic masculinity caused my biggest regret. My biggest regret came when I was 11. My childhood dog had to be put down and I didn’t go into the room with him. He was 4 years old when I was born and there are pictures of him sitting/laying by me when I was tiny just watching over me. We grew up together. His time eventually came and I remember him sitting with his head on my lap the whole way to the vet. We got there and I waited in the lobby area while my family went in with him. I was so focused on not letting anyone see me cry that I waited out there and heard him howl and whimper because he didn’t know where I was. My family came out in tears and I remained emotionless until I was alone in my room. I wasn’t there for him in his last moments when he needed me the most. All because I didn’t want people seeing me cry. I’m 25 now and it still haunts me.

March 11, 2023

My wife told me this story about a time she was lecturing a kid on why he should try to do well in school. She asked him what he wanted to be when he grows up... his response “I want to be in jail. That’s where my dad and uncle is.” She had no response. Probably the only time in here career that she was left speechless by a student.

March 11, 2023

When my paternal grandmother died last summer I didn’t really feel anything. I cried when my immediate family cried because that’s what you’re supposed to do, but that was it. You cry in private and fix your face before you go out in public. Even my dad understood that. All I felt was irritated when my extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins, etc) got emotional because they acted like her death was so sudden when it wasn’t. She had cancer and she’d smoked a pack a day for probably 60 years, what were they expecting? She didn’t die of Covid so they should be grateful it didn’t cut her life short. I thought they were being over dramatic and they needed to pull themselves together and act like adults. They couldn’t even mourn right. I feel a little judgmental saying it but they couldn’t. Funerals are one of the only gatherings where strict rules are followed and they couldn’t even do that, they dressed the younger cousins up like it was Easter Sunday. I had gin for breakfast the day of her funeral because I couldn’t stand being around them while they acted like her death was the apocalypse.

March 11, 2023

When I was 9 years old I had an older girl friend who blackmailed me and another girl to do sexual acts with each other. This went on for months and we never could do anything because I didn’t understand what was really going on. I still haven’t told a soul and it only stopped when the other girl moved away to a different state and the older girl went to college.

March 11, 2023

my "stepdad" constantly touches me in appropriately when he thinks I'm sleeping...but im too much of a coward to do anything about it. he's also heavily abusive towards my mother and I have numerous audio recordings of him being verbally and physically abusive. but again, I'm too much of a coward to do anything because he's the only reason my mother and I have a roof over our heads. we aren't in a good place financially so we likely won't be able to stay afloat without him in the picture, but I'm just so sick of being near him. the fact that he's in the same room as me right now makes me sick.

March 11, 2023

Letting my social anxiety, and shame get in the way of doing the things I want to do, simple things such as going out with my friends. I Regret my mind think that people are saying this and that stuff about me which purely isn’t true, I’m just insecure due to trauma that I have been through, Which has lead me to this condition and yes Ik… Therapy.

March 11, 2023

Honestly there are days when I don't want to.... Be here. I do have a LOT of childhood trauma. I was abused by my biological parents, even the people that adopted me abuse me (it used to be physical now its mental) their son (5years older than me) m()le$ted my 2 biological sisters and I for YEARS, no one ever helped us even after we got the police in on it. But the thing is I CANT leave. I have the sweetest little brother and sisters.. how could I do that to them. They've helped me through Hell and back but still, they even support that I'm trans!. I dont know why I can't move past this.

March 11, 2023

For the longest time, my dad treated me awfully. He was my biggest bully. Did everything from physically hurting me to emotionally hurting me. And even though I have three other siblings, he targeted me specifically so many times. Now that I’m older, it’s like nothing happened at all. He treats me better than my other siblings a lot of the time. Everyone says I’m his favorite, but I can’t ever forgive him for how messed up he made me. Sometimes I think I just imagined the whole thing, but then something will happen where I know it was real. I feel like I’m going crazy sometimes. How am I supposed to move on and forget when my entire being can’t? I don’t know what to do.

March 10, 2023