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The only reason I’ve yet kill myself is that I’ve realized I’m sort of a “cushion” for other peoples pain,like I’m able to be the person they can talk too and feel better, the one they can vent too. But I have my own problems, I’ve done nothing in my life really, I’m 20 and haven’t done shit with my life, I’m actually depressed, The one thing stopping my form taking a sewer slide is the fact that if I go, nobody else is going to be there for those people, and that’s another thing for me, is that all i am?

March 29, 2023

My biggest regret was letting people tell me I should end things with my girlfriend one time. Which broke the love we had. We tried again but she didn’t want the label of a relationship because she wanted to see where things went with other people. She ended up finding some people she wanted to see how far they’d go. So My anger got the best of me so I ended up ruining any chance of even just being her friend. I want to see her happy I just wish I was still apart of her life to see her be happy even if it’s not with me.

March 28, 2023

i was in the foster care system for a couple years and then was adopted when I was four I’m now 20. I was adopted by an older couple. The mom wasn’t very active in my life she slept most of the time as her depression pills made her drowsy and the dad was verbally and physically abusive punching me kicking me beating me over little things all throughout my childhood. I had always wanted to get out of that house and meet my real mom because I thought my life would have been so much better with her. One day I had the chance to meet my real mother when I was 13ish and I did it was pretty cool. She had changed her life around from the bad situation that had got me taken away from her. Shortly after that visit she disappeared out of my life then would randomly pop back in one or twice a year if that. I loved my real mother but felt betrayed and all alone by her choices she made then and when I was a baby. There came a point in time after a couple years of this that I wanted nothing to do with her so when she’s call I’d ignore her. One day she called the home phone and my adopted mother brought me the phone i tried to tell her in a hushed voice “tell her I’m not here” but she handed me the phone anyways. My mothers birthday was coming up and she wanted to hang out. I told I was busy and a bunch of other excuses so I wouldn’t have to and she said that’s fine just call me when u can. As she ended the call she said I love you and I half assed and in a very petty tone said love you and hung up before she said anything else. As her birthday neared I got a phone call at 5:58am one morning, my mother had passed. I was so heart broken I had been petty,rude, and so mean the last time we had talked and she had died with that being our last encounter and I deeply regret that. she was the only connection I had to my pass and all the stories bout me and my family history are lost with her.

March 28, 2023

my dad basically starves me knowing i have an eating disorder and i wanna confront him but im scared to because he hit me alot when i was younger. When i say he starves me i mean he knows i have issues with eating and if i eat a texture or taste i dont like i throw up and when i eat i always feel sick to stomach no matter what im eating so if i eat even a little too much i throw up. He knows that cause i trustes him with it even after he yelled at me for being trans. He now refuses to buy me food, throws away my foods specifically for me when people buy me foods and never tells me when hes made food. Not to mention he rarely cooks and i normally have to cook for my sisters so they dont end up the way i did. But recently theres been literally nothing i can eat. And when he goes to the store i send him with a list and he tries to tell me i didnt. But he gets pissy when i bring it up. I haven't told my mom i have an eating disorder because she struggled when she was younger and shell probably end up blaming herself. What should i do?

March 28, 2023

My dad’s side were never happy since the day that I was born. They mentally abused me since I was 4 ( that when I roughly remember). They all played victims every time they abused me, making my dad to abandon me too. I was never loved and appreciated by them. I watched them trying to separate my family, shaming my mom for not being able to have more kids than 2. Tried to isolate my brother from me and made suicidal. Years passed but not their toxicity…. And now I hate to admit that I became the outcomes of my childhood traumas with a failed suicidal attempts. To this day I couldn’t forgive myself for killing my inner child and for living behind the shadows. I have depression and social anxiety but I’m trying to survive for my mom, brother and a few friends who never left me alone. I hope I make it one day……….

March 28, 2023

After I was kicked out onto the streets by my parents at 16, out of desperation I went to live with my grandfather (a miserable & hateful man who molested me when I was younger). His health eventually deteriorated to the point he was falling down constantly. One time I finally got sick of helping him, and basically just ignored him on the floor like he snapped at me to in one of his infamous temper tantrums. I found him dead about 2-3 days later, and honestly don't feel much guilt about it most days.

March 28, 2023

My friend (f) committed a while ago and the day of she kept dropping "i love you's" into the conversation. I told her that i loved her too , and im happy i did . after our conversation she posted on instagram and i felt the urge to respond to her story, like i did most times when she posted, but for some reason i decided not too, that i would tell her how pretty she looked at school the next day and i found out she committed a couple hours later. i cant help but feel like its my fault, like i should've noticed the i love you's or responded to her story, because that could've made her stay a little longer. give her time to think. that's all :/

March 28, 2023

When I was around 9, I was s3xually assaulted by someone I was related to. She forced me to do things with her, I never wanted to but she said she’d get me in trouble if I didn’t. I eventually moved away and it stopped and I didn’t tell anyone what had happened for the fear of getting in trouble. I’m now 17 and pretty much my whole life has been based around sexual things and I can’t stop thinking about it and I want to genuinely love a boy but i feel like those thoughts will always get in the way and I’ll never be able to love the way other people do.

March 27, 2023

I've been with my husband for 4 years( married for 2 almost 3) we also have an 8 month old together.. I just found out why his family hates him so much and took him out of the will. I found out he touched his 5 year old sister when he was 8 He told me that his older sister (12) molested him and so did his aunt and sometimes his aunt and sister did it to him together. I don't think he would ever hurt our children EVER but it's always in the back of my head now that I think about it and we've talked about trying for another baby ( maybe a girl) and it sometimes scares me and I don't know what I want / need to do. I trust my husband so much but it's also sometimes very terrible because I was raped and molested my by moms boyfriend from 8-11 years old until my mom found out and kicked him out. What should I do??

March 27, 2023

My biggest regret will always be lying to everyone i know about who i was.. lying about everything.. I'll never be able to tell everyone that i lied or even what i lied about because of how wrapped up i am in it now.. i am now this person i never thought or felt like I'd be and i just can't help but feel awful because whenever i act like myself people think I'm acting weird.. before i die I'd like to tell them if i could but i don't think I'd even be able to muster the words- it's just such an awful thing i lied about that i can never unlie.. it's who I am now.. moral is don't fucking lie about shit this bad.

March 27, 2023