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I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me, I have such a privileged life and I’m fucking depressed I hate myself,everyone hates me, my mum is so mean to me and favours my sister and the only people that understood me died. 3 cats 1 dog and my grandpa died in 18 months they were my best friends now I feel I’m alone in this world.My teacher makes fun of my dead cats all because she’s mad at my family for her actions. I want to die. I’m so depressed bc I get treated so awfully. I’m the therapist friend and I take the blame for everything bc I don’t want my “friends” to get in trouble and the one friend I do have annoys me and I hate it. We get along so well but she can’t manage without me. I am so sick of being bullied endlessly I want to kill myself. I know no one will miss me but my dad. If my dad died I would definitely kms I need help but I’m so happy no one thinks I need it what do I do

April 11, 2023

So I have 2 older siblings, my brother who is 1 year older and my sister who is almost 3 years older. When I was younger, like 5-9, we would all play special games together that I was told could never be played with adults around or with other kids and I thought that made it cooler. I don't want to go into detail but they were all SA games and most of time I was the target. There was a lot of other things happening at the time so we were always home alone with my unrestricted Internet access which is were I think they got it from. This went on for years and they both taught me a lot things to do that would make them "happy" and tbh I liked it. It made me feel special and good the way they would touch me so I never said anything. Eventually as we all got older it just stopped happening and none of us ever talk about it anymore but I can't get over it. Everytime I think about it I hate myself for liking it and not stopping it.

April 11, 2023

The night my mom dies, I was 16, she called me. Me being me, I didn't answer, not know that would be the last time I would have the chance to hear her voice. Every time I called, she did her best to answer, it's been seven months now, and I can only remember her voice if I watch some videos she had on her phone

April 11, 2023

So in 2012 my grandpa was diagnosed with lung cancer after smoking cigars for a really long time.I was 9 at the time. He had always told me they were good for you when I asked him why he smoked them. He start getting my tests done and was coughing a lot and was slowly deteriorating. He later ended up getting admitted into hospital and was there for about a week until I ended up having the courage to go see him with my mom. We talked for about an hour or so that night. We always had this thing he said “Cya later alligator” and I would respond “after while crocodile”. That was the last thing I ever said to him as he passed away in his sleep that night. I am so glad I got to go see him that night I always think about the last words.

April 11, 2023

Hello, I have been in college for about 6 months now. Back when I joined I had always had bad luck with women and dating so I just stayed to myself. Then I met a girl named (we'll just call her Susie). Susie was this cute girl with white hair and had a really chill personality. When we first met she complimented my outfit and I complimented her hair. Next time we met we just talked about random stuff and her car and I asked for her number. She gave it to me and then we just texted about school. Next time we hung out at school I asked her if she wanted to go get a drink; a milkshake or whatever. Well I was starting to fall for this girl the more I talked to her until eventually I wanted her to meet my friends. She met my two best friends and got along so well with them but one of my best friends HIS best friend named (we'll call him Billy) was an asshole. He and I never really got along and he kinda treated me like shit. Susie told me she wasn't in the mood to date because she was just getting over an ex who I helped her get over. Well, I guess she changed her mind because she tried to get with Billy and Billy told me "Im sorry but she's a baddie and it ain't working out so im gonna shoot my shot." Yeah. She kept lying and saying nothing was happening between them but she'd lie about having him spend the night over at her house and got mad when I mentioned them two possibly getting together. He was into her and told me to back off because she's into him. Broke my heart. Im not a "all girls are the same" kind of pussy but. That did hurt. And after a bunch of drama and problems I even helped cause, she's gone. Nothing I can do do about it and when I think back I just get really pissed about it. Thats all really. I'm not depressed or anything but im jusy curious what the community has to say.

April 10, 2023

I wanna forgive my parents but I can’t cause I want my family to know the pain I went through all of those years fighting with me, beating me, all of those hospital body cause I’m not mentally stable. I want them to know how it feels so bad but I love them to much so I’m just stuck in this never ending cycle of wanting to die but can’t cause it’s not working I’ve tried 4 weekends in a row to OD taken whole bottles but I’m still alive and if they did know I don’t think they would care (sorry for the rant)

April 10, 2023

When I was 10 I had this massive crush on a girl but it turned put she liked my bsf and my bsf only liked her back bc my crush like my bsf (if that makes sense) my bsf liked my crush for 2 months I had liked this girl for almost over a year I wanted the best for my bsf but the was like betraying myself, and I haven't told my her (my crush) that I like her and then from there everything started to fall apart… My friendships broke apart I, started sh again ( which I had pledged I would never do a agian) I had to call ‘kidshelpline’ bc I was about to try cutting myself again, I started having big arguments with my parents which didn’t really help me at the time…I started comparing myself to my bsf bc somehow my crush like my bsf and not me and I started doubting myself “if was good enough” or “no one loves me”… I regret not telling anyone because then they might have helped me…

April 10, 2023

I become close with an older manager at my job. He was a friend to me and offered advice and comfort during hard times. I thought of him like a father. But then he sexually harassed me for months until i had a breakdown. Its hurts to lose a friend and a mentor. To be betrayed. I miss the friend i once had, and it makes me feel guilty. Hes a bad person, and yet i miss him. He took so much from me. Im broken.

April 10, 2023

so i lost my vcard feb18th2022 and i’m kinda regretting it bc he was my ex and i’m 13- and a few hours after that he called me fat and difficult to fuq and i felt ashamed of my body and i felt so horrible but i was confused at first but my friend told me what he meant that night i wanted to die so bad. and it was in the bathrooms at evo. literally regretting the whole thing. but that’s okay bc i’m okay now and i vented to one of my friends who also did it with him and dumped him, and before we did it he said i shouldn’t be nervous and he wasn’t excited and kept asking why i’m excited for it.

April 10, 2023

A family member has been molesting and raping me for years. I regret that I never told anyone when it first started. (Maybe I would be living a different life than I am now). No one saw the many signs I showed from being SA. I want to move out but I’m not allowed to get a job. So I can’t afford an apartment. I graduated school in December, so I’ll have to wait until august to go to college. Meaning I’m stuck here for months.so I spend my days at home depressed and crying. I don’t know what to do because if I leave I’ll have nowhere to go. But if I stay

April 10, 2023