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I met a group of girls this year.. and it was fun. We were all friends and then two of them- Annabelle and Beatrice were closer than everyone else. So it was fine, there’s usually people that are closer. But then the other two, Sammy and Hannah also got close. It kinda fucked with my head because damn. I had no one else. My ONE friend that I had from middle school had like one class with me and then I had almost every class with these girls. I was left out of everything and then suddenly Annabelle was getting closer to this other girl named Delilah so then Beatrice started getting close with this girl Stacy. I was always there. They didn’t even try to associate with me. I was actually the one who brought them together. I met Annabelle and brought her to sit with me at lunch. I knew Beatrice since elementary and she looked a little lost so I asked her to sit with us. Hannah and Sammy just joined randomly but I was the one who included them in conversations. They all got close and I had no one. Anyways. After Beatrice and Stacy got into a fight Beatrice started paying attention to me. Great. I was so happy and we texted everyday and I was so good to her. She was really cocky and mean at times. I looked past that because I didn’t want to fight with her. One day I went to her house and we had a lot of fun and her grandma loved me. The next week she ghosted me. I would ask what I did wrong and if she was alright and she wouldn’t say a word. I was crying like every period that week. What was I supposed to do? Annabelle tried to justify her and said that Beatrice was just tired or annoyed. But like.. why wouldn’t she be tired and annoyed around other people? Why was it just me. The worst fucking thing is getting ignored with no explanation. She started making up shitty rumors about and and now the whole gang hates me.. what the fuck do I do with that? There’s still like 4/5 months of school left. I cry every time I see her and everyone else. I still never got an explanation even when I would try to confront her and everyone else. I’m the bad guy now. No one believes me and I’m now hated my them and their friends. There’s only like two people who actually believed me. My sister.. and my one friend.. I’m great fun for them.

April 22, 2023

I used to love every aspect of myself. i thought i fell in love with this boy who took my virginity from me and i let him because he made me feel bad when i said no. now i absolutely hate the way i look. i get excited when i fit into a smaller size of jeans and when my stomach looks smaller, but no matter what. i will never be small enough. i’m ready for my happiness to come back, im ready to be the old me again.

April 21, 2023

I think I was r@ped… I invited a boy over to my house and we went to my room to hangout, idk how exactly it got to the point it did but he started to put his hands on my body and that was okay then he proceeded to take his clothing off and mine, I was okay with that too. He touched me down there and that too was okay. But he wanted to have actual s€x and I didn’t want to do that, I wanted to save myself fully for someone other than him. Now I let him keep going because I was scared he’d wake my parents or hurt me if I said otherwise(he snuck in at night) he was stronger than me and kept saying he should be allowed to f**k me because “why else would I be here” after he said that I said “idk if I’m ready” and he said “trust me you are…” and put it in. He was on top of me and had his hands all over me. I had to stay quite so I didn’t wake my parents. I’m so scared to see him again and I don’t even think he realizes what he did to me.

April 21, 2023

a guy i really liked so much, at the time i really considered him my bestfriend i chose to open up about my sexual assault and when the assault happened… we said goodbye for now a few weeks before my anniversary date to each other since he thought it was best to have a break with eachother because he made me sad and when i reached out to him for help to be there for me on my rape anniversary and he blocked me on everything. to this day i don’t know why.. he knows i don’t tell people and i think it’s the bare minimum to be there for me when i opened up about it. i don’t think it’s okay for me to feel more ashamed to reach out for help then the assault happening itself, i still don’t feel okay and haven’t told anyone what happened between us because i can’t even come to terms with what happened

April 21, 2023

i was 10 and my friend was 7. i was a curious kid who was learning about the world and i wanted to experiment stuff with them because they were my bestfriend. we would do weird stuff together and i carry this guilt with me all the time because i think i ruined their childhood because of my curiosity. i am 16 now and i would never do that weird stuff to anyone. i was just curious and wanted to see what it was like with my bestfriend. they were so young and i really do feel like i ruined their childhood. i didn’t rape them or touch/like them inappropriately but we did weird stuff. i think about this from time to time and i just hate myself so much for it.

April 21, 2023

When I was in high school I invoked a group of friends to complain about a moody teacher I didn’t like to the point where they began to mock her appearance and teaching methods. For the rest of the school year she would become shy around me before retiring and moving away. It wasn’t until after high school did I realize she was in the next room and heard everything (there was a vent connecting the two rooms) and she was particularly hurt because I masked my disdain for her through a veneer of politeness and humour. I was one of her favourite students.

April 21, 2023

There have been times I've looked at my own medication and thought about ending it. I guess I thought they would rule it an accident, a stupid mistake. But I was a coward, and I still am. Every time I think about just taking my own life, I back out. I don't know how to make it stop. I want it to stop, but at the same time I don't know? What if this is something telling me that I wasn't ready to be alive, or that I wasn't made for this world.

April 21, 2023

I have a crush on boy who’s never been in a relationship before and I asked my friend to help me but he told him that he wasn’t looking for anyone. Everyday when we see each other I feel like he wants to talk to me but is just scared. I’ll always see him look at me or smile and talk about me. I don’t understand why’s he doing that when he doesn’t like me. I don’t want to say I’m overthinking it because I know I’m not. What do y’all think? Could he possibly like me? Should I just move on since there won’t be an us? Idk but the thing is I really like him.

April 21, 2023

TW My little sister(9) begged me for weeks just to talk to her. Me being 13 thought that it would be a waste of time. Turns out she was being bullied and they told her to kill herself. She was cutting for a long time. I never thought about the fact that this could be the case because of her being so young. 2 years later she killed herself. If I would have just take 10 minutes out of my fucking day to talk to her I could have stopped her. If I could send a message to everyone reading this it would be that age doesnt matter when it comes to these thing. Take time to make sure your friends and family are okay.

April 20, 2023

one time in like 3rd grade I purposely gave this girl lice bc she kept making me mad

April 20, 2023