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I was born with 2 penises, I thought it was normal and my parents never talk about it, now that im adult I have been thinking of removing one of them but to be honest im scared, when I have sex with my gay boyfriend I can use both of my penises to penetrate him, both of my penises are the same size 8.5 inches and uncut, my testicles are also double the size and they bounce heavily while doing the doggie style, I just like to hear peoples advice, should I remove one penis or keep it??

April 29, 2023

I think theres something wrong with me. I had a suicide attempt in July 2021 and I don’t even know why I did it. It’s not that I’m depressed or craving attention but I just did it. I don’t feel like myself these days and I just feel so angry all the time for no apparent reason. I don’t usually get angry and I think everyone around me is starting to notice my mood changes. They all think I’m being stupid and sensitive and I think so as well but I just don’t know how to stop it.

April 29, 2023

Growing up I was in the foster care system, I have my parents but It wasn't the best to put it nicely. When I turned 10 or 11 I was sent to the E.R. for mental health after I was in group homes till I was 18. The first one I went to I stayed at for about 4 or 5 years one of the max levels in CA. And every day I wished for someone to save me from that place. I watched people come and go for so long I became numb to it. I truly thought I would never leave. And any time I got mad or my body language was a little hostile I would be restrained I was young With mental health issues honestly I don't think that was best because now when I see that place or anyone who worked there my body hurts from the memories or being held down because I mad and no one would listen I couldn't walk out to get air because it was "unsafe" but after a while you just submit and bottle everything up I learned really fast to hide your true feelings because if you cried to loud you needed more medication and if you where to happy you just wanted attention. Now I have perfected The art of the lie and manipulate my emotions to fit. I honestly don't really feel human anymore. Maybe I'm just insane or truly unfixable but I will never forget the things I saw and felt over those years everything was pain, a deep red like blood black and white mixing pulling and pushing like TV static twisting my mind till I was numb and just let it happen staring out of an empty mind. I still feel this way and I wish no one to feel this kind of pain as it is truly unbearable at times to the point you pass out due to how much pain u feel like it's pulling you to sleep whether you wanted to or not. Then you wake up like the pain was never there but comes back like it never left. And it's the same every time. I've tried different methods to stop the pain every time it to be unsuccessful. Now I live with this everyday all the pain like TV static. Thank you for listening to may story.

April 29, 2023

i hate black people. idk if i’m racist or what but i just can’t stand how they look/talk/act. they physically repulse me. idk if i should get help or where to get it. i have a friend that’s black and i can’t stand being around him anymore.

April 29, 2023

i was raped from the age of 7-11 by a family member. i am now 17, and i have never told anyone. i am now too afraid to be loved in a sexual or romantic way. i don’t know what to do and who to tell but it has never left my mind, i want to speak up but i am afraid i won’t be believed or i will be misunderstood and punished for what i have gone through.

April 28, 2023

When I was 6 me and my 3 other siblings went to a family friends house with my dad and they had a dog that just gave birth to puppies. My dad let us bring 2 home after begging him. My dad always would hit them with newspapers and never let them and was just really rude to them and nobody really knew why. We had these dogs for about 2 years and we loved them so much. One morning me and my siblings woke up and noticed that the dogs weren’t there and neither was my dad. My mom told us that my dad was getting rid of them. Me and my siblings cried the whole time he was gone pleading for my mom to stop him but she couldn’t do anything. He finally got home and no dogs were with him I don’t remember what or if he said something but ever since that day it hasn’t been the same between me and my dad. I am now 13 and I still don’t know where my best friends went and I have always felt a hatred for my dad (not just because of this) and I think it all went downhill when he took away my babies. :(

April 28, 2023

I think I was raped, or sexually assaulted idk which one. I was dating this guy for abt two months but ive known him for 2 years, his sister is my bsf. He would force me to kiss him, would go through my phone and text my guy friends pretending to be me flirting. He was mentally and emotionally abusive I think. He manipulated me into sneaking him in my room one night. We were making out and he got on top of me. I said I didn’t want to do anything. He begged, I said no. I thought he had left it alone but we were kissing again and he said he wanted to see me happy (from pleasure). He forced me on my back but I put my knees up and closed them. He used his knee and split my legs open. He then used each leg to pin mine down in a butterly sit. He pinned my hands above my head with one of his. He laid on top of me and put a lot of weight down so I couldn’t move. I had thin nike shorts and he had boxers. Ik we had clothes on but he penetrated and it hurt. He went deeper with every stroke and I said he was hurting me. I realized what was happening and quit trying to fight him. He relaxed and let off some weight and I moved my leg up and hurt his balls. He yelled in pain but he got off of me. I immediately began to apologize and he made me feel guilty. I told him I said I didn’t want to but his excuse was he thought I was joking. He had gripped my hands so hard they were red and stung afterwards. I felt so guilty for hurting him but he never apologized to me. I broke up with him a few weeks afterwards. Im not sure what to call what he did. I never realized the full extent until one day I was in the shower and I remembered it more vividly and I broke down.

April 28, 2023

I've been in a relationship for almost two years. We communicate and talk things out, we have a pretty healthy relationship. I love him and he's been with me through a severe diagnosis but something has been bugging me. We talked about rpe in one of my psych courses and something stuck with me. If you tell them no beforehand or they constantly pressure you into it, it's rpe. He's done both, that's how I lost my v-card to him and him to me. I told him no beforehand, and he did it anyway. I was tired from a night shift and didn't have enough energy to push him off. He even said after "I know you didn't want to" and it's stuck with me for this past year. I love him, but I keep thinking back on that. I don't know what to do, he hasn't done it since but...I'm scared it will.

April 28, 2023

When i was about 6, I had a best friend named Abby. She was a few Years older than me but i didn't really care. One day we had a sleepover at my house and it was going really well untill she asked me "do you want to practice kissing boys on each other?" and I was 6 so I didn't know how creepy that was. Before I could really answer, she started to bring me up to my bunk bed. She started saying really weird things then she started to lean in, I started to freak out so I put a cat pillow over my face and she kissed the cat pillow instead of me

April 28, 2023

I am a mistress. Before I get called a sl*t, homewrecker, etc., I would like to point out that there is a whole back story to this. He was cheated on by his partner with another man for 2 years, and the wife has recently just admitted to it. She wants to “fix” things, but he doesn’t. Now you’re thinking, “then a divorce?” No. They have kids together and he cannot make the decision to leave because he does not want to hurt his kids. She also does not have a stable job. He asked me to wait a little bit more, give him time to let his kids grow older just a little bit more so they will understand better. Meanwhile, we live in secrecy. My family is under the impression that I am in a happy, loving, one of a kind relationship. I cannot leave him, because I am in love with him. And I can see in his eyes that he loves me too. Last Sunday, I found out I was about 5 weeks pregnant. I am scheduled for an abortion soon. We spent the last few days grieving about a beautiful baby we will never get to meet. Whenever he kisses my stomach, I cry and think about how much of an amazing father he would have been. And I can’t help but hate his wife, wish that it had been me he comes home to. Please never cheat. If you really love a person, love them enough to be with them and only them. If you don’t feel the same anymore, respect them enough to walk away.

April 28, 2023