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I still want to pursue art. I am in a pre-nursing path right now, and no, my parents did not force me into this. But some days, I still wonder what my life would be like right now if I chose to pursue my passion. Till now, I don’t have an exact answer as to why I didn’t choose art. I hope that someday, I’ll be able to find it within myself to continue my childhood dream. But for now, I made a choice. I chose it, so I put up with the consequences of my choices.

July 31, 2023

I have many regrets in life, but this one is the cherry on top. As I've said in the previous forms I've submitted I come from a broken and disheveled household. Since my upbringing I've become deeply depressed. As I get older my will to live weakens, and the only reason I've made it this far in life is because I have a little brother seven years younger than me. His name is Mark and he's the most precious thing in this world. I love him to death and I would protect him with my life. At first I thought "As long as he lives and breathes so will I" I was confident in that decision and yet here I am hoping the next morning I don't wake up. Every regret in my life catches up to me. At times I'm afraid I'll really do it. Though because I'm afraid at that thought I have hope I'll gain the courage to live on and see him grow into an outstanding gentleman (or lady the choice is all his). Now for the main part of this message I want to say that my biggest regret is letting my surroundings define who I am, because now I'm a mess. To everyone who reads this I want to say to you to not let your mistakes or the people around you mold you into a terrible person. You are not your mother, father, uncle, aunt, cousin, etc. You can be better than them and I truly believe that. I fear it is a bit to late for me now but it's not for you. Lastly. As I write this my fingers tremble as I'm afraid to submit this but I know there's someone out there who's exactly like me. I hope my message gives strength to those who need it. Thank you for reading. English is not my first language and I need more work on my punctuation but If you post this I would love tips on how I can improve and how you received my message. Thank you again.

July 31, 2023

I had a video go around of me and it was with a guy, my sister supported me and made sure I was okay and felt awful for me. I found out later that week that she had posted a video of me calling me a whole and when I asked her why she did it she said “because you are. Nowone will ever love you the same” that night I heard her sobbing in her room saying she wishes she was dead. It’s all my fault.

July 31, 2023

I'm 16 but I fell in love at 15. It might be hard to believe but I met a guy he was 19 at the time and I fell in love. Head over heels nothing I could do. Every text brought joy to my life, when we talked or touched it was like lightning flashed through my body. It was amazing, then he started dating someone I felt betrayed and hurt so I went to find someone. He changed after that. He became a dick so for the last year we talked on and off I'm 16 now and it still hurts. Causes constant pain and hurt. I tried to move on but I still think about him. How do I fix this?

July 31, 2023

Sooo im currently suffering from an ED (bulmina to be exact) and my friends are supportive of me but at the same time they still make jokes about it. I always hear the “why eat if youll throw it up” “oh did you throw up already” “you cant even keep it down” etc. it doesnt bother me too much because alot of times they try to keep me seated and let me stomach the food down and have always asked me how my progress is. But at the same time, my best friend isnt the biggest eater, at least not infront of me. We would plan days to go out and eat and she always eats less than i do. I get really insecure and that prompts me to get rid of the food. She oftenly comments how little she eats or how shes not hungry. If yk anything about EDs, you should know that it’s extremely competitive. So everytime i hear that or smth similar, body body freezes up and i no longer eat or keep anything down for the day. I cant bring myself too. I feel like a pig everytime i hear “im not hungry” or “oh i only ate one thing today” or anything along the lines of that. Its not her fault for saying this or my friends to joke about it, we aren’t sentimental with each other and it weirds us all out when it does happen. I know they dont mean it and want the best for me, but the comments just drive my ED further and further. I cant go to my family, they make comments on my body regardless so the only people i have are them, but at this point idk if ill be okay.

July 31, 2023

I've known my best friend for nearly 10 yrs and we're super close, but i feel like we're drifting. Like it's mostly just a one sided friendship now. He almost never texts first, never wants to hang out jus the 2 of us, and I really like him but I don't know how to tell him. Once when I brought it up he just said he doesn't date close friends, which I get bc of what happened when he dated friends in the past. But when I can make a list of friends he's dated, it kinda just feels like an excuse at this point. And when he says he wants to hang out with someone who's not to good of a person, can make time for her outside of school but never me, I felt kinda hurt that he'd say that. But I don't know how to bring any of this up to him without seeming like im trying to control him, or break up his friendship.

July 30, 2023

I was sexually abused, I can remember as far back as 4 years old and it finally ended when they left home. I was 12. They were my step-cousins. I dreaded having to go to sleep for school 8:30pm every night, once that door closed I knew what was going to happen. They'd do everything to me and told me if I ever told anyone they'd kill me. 13 years on and I finally found the courage to forgive them, not for them but for me. It was liberating.

July 30, 2023

I fell in love with a guy for 5 years of my life. No matter how much time we were away from each other I couldn’t forget him or move on from him. 2 years ago I started to date someone else and had stoped talking to the other guy who we will call Jacob. For so long I thought that I had stoped loving Jacob yet not once did he leave my mind. He was always in my heart and was such an important person. Many people ask why I didn’t just stay with him. The truth is that he never told me how he truly felt. He never spoke his mind to me. He was always quiet and refused to tell me how he felt about me. In a way I know he loved me too. I just don’t think he wanted to be an open person because he was never open with anyone at all. We weren’t meant to be and this past summer I left my relationship to try and be with Jacob but he was hurting me by staying silent and not telling me if he wanted to be with me. He said he did but he wasn’t open on his feelings and as much as I think he did love me I also think that he was never gonna fight for me or open up to me. I wish it was different. He was the only person I will ever have such a strong connection and bond with. After two months of trying to work something out with him again. It failed. I felt like he wanted the whole world but me. I love him I really do. I went back to the guy I was dating because I felt it was unfair to leave such a great guy for something that wasn’t gonna work out. However I truly love Jacob and yes I love my boyfriend too but Jacob will always be a piece of my life and soul. I don’t know how to let Jacob go. At nights I miss him a lot and I need to constantly remind myself that I need to let him go. I just wanna forget him and move in. I wish it was easy. I just wanna feel happiness and no longer pain from a love that was too good to be true.

July 30, 2023

I don’t know what to say. I cant describe what I feel; I’ve been feeling it for so long it’s like I just forgot. It’s like an empty feeling inside me that can’t be filled. I have a good life. I have a great boyfriend and awesome friends. I’m smart, pretty, funny, and have a good amount of money, but I feel so empty. Maybe it’s cause I grew up too fast or something, but I just want to quit. Not like end it, but take a break. Out of all the things I have, maybe I feel empty because I don’t have time. Everything is going too fast and im barely 13. Im turning 14 soon but I just want to stop. Im so scared of the future, the years are going so fast. I don’t know who to talk to even though I know everyone is there for me. What do I do? I cant stop time; im not magic. I feel like im such a waste. A waste of a pretty face and intelligence, like im never even gonna use it. What if I end up being nothing? I feel like there’s nothing I can do, like I’m being selfish asking for help even though I have a ton of people to help me. So to answer your question, I guess before I die I want people to know I was actually nothing the whole time.

July 30, 2023

my parents were going through a messy divorce after my dad had been cheating on my mother all throughout their 20 year marriage. obviously i sided with my mother and would spend as little time as possible with him, i was afraid of him. i love both of my parents and i always will, but i ignored him for weeks. a few weeks go past and i message him to get me out of swimming at school, if i hadn’t come home when i did that day that would have been the last thing i ever got to say to him. we came home and found him in the garage after attempting suicide, he was moved to a hospital and he survived but i can’t help thinking what if i didn’t come home when i did or the way i had been treating him even though he didn’t die that day a part of all of us did.

July 30, 2023