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I hate my puppy, I would never do anything bad for her cause I'm not a piece of caca but still, she was a gift from my abusive ex when we were in our honeymoon stage. After my ex and I broke up I took the dog so I could isolate him like he isolated me whenever he was upset but now I wish I didn't take her. She constantly reminds me of what I went through with him and the arguments, stress, depression, and overall hell I've been through with my ex. As much as I hate this dog I could never do her wrong, I could never hurt her because I know that none of this is her fault, I'm all she's known since she was four months old so I know why she loves me. I don't know what to do with her, my friends and family tell me not to get rid of her but sometimes I can't even bare to look in her direction.

May 28, 2023

I love my family and all but they scare me. Its like I dont fit in. Sure there nice to me and all but i feel like i annoy and anger them. The only person im close to is my mom but im super clingy to her. I know its selfish of me to spend time with her when shes alone but she understands me and i feel safe around her. I was SA’d by my older brother when I was younger and I still gotta act like everythings okay but i lay awake at night sobbing cause i have flashbacks. I was taken away by foster care for 4 days when I was 5. That traumatized me. I still have flashbacks of it. I feel like i annoy everyone. I just want everything to stop…

May 28, 2023

I started cutting myself recently and it’s so addicting I want to stop so bad before it gets out of hand. My old bsf used to cut herself too n I never knew how to help and I could go to her for help but she’d be so disappointed in me. I can’t go to my current bsf bc I already know that she just wudnt understand. I can’t go to my lad bsf bc he’d make a joke outa me and I might be able to go to my other friend but shed make to big of a deal over it. I can’t go to my parents bc they’d punish me instead of helping please if any1 has advice for me I’d really appreciate it

May 28, 2023

When I was 10 years old my grandma got super sick. We were never close, if anything I dreaded talking to her or being with her because I thought she was boring. She was always angry or upset, never found anything positive in life. Ten year old me didn’t understand why she was like that, obviously. If anything, I didn’t think she loved me very much because she was never around. It was Christmas eve, I knew she was in the hospital. She’s had health problems before, so I thought this would just blow off like the other ones had. I didn’t really know how bad it was. My dad was there visiting with her. I was nosy, so I got on my moms phone that night to call my dad and ask him when he was gonna be home. The second I opened the screen I saw a text that said, “she’s gone.” My mom disappeared for the rest of the night. She was crying in her closet. My aunt had to watch me and my brother while she was upset too. I didn’t tell anyone I knew. I spent all of that Christmas knowing my grandma was dead without anyone knowing. I didn’t realize how much she meant to me until her funeral, it tore me up. I never got to tell her how much I loved her until she was gone. I miss her everyday.

May 28, 2023

tw suicide a couple months ago i was feeling really bad and suicidal so i wrote my friends and my family (mom, dad, brother, stepdad) a note. and i took like 80+ Tylenol pills. i woke up and i was so embarrassed/sad. for 2 weeks after that i couldn’t eat without needing to throw up. i still think about it and the only people that know about it are two of my friends and my mom and brother just found out. they told me to not do it again but it felt so good to do it, it’s when i woke up did i feel worse.

May 28, 2023

I’m a teenage male who has stage 5 kidney failure. Everyone always tells me that i’m so strong and how proud they are of me but honestly… I wish I could just end it all.. End my moms suffering, my own, my family’s. I know they all love me plus my spouse so I would never. I’m just in so much pain 24/7. Everyday I wake up I lay here waiting for my body to stop hurting. It’s so emotionally and physically draining. Everyday I wish I could go back to my normal self. But i feel that this was meant to happen to me. I feel like this was a sign to straighten up because I was going down a bad path. I just want to say never give up. Someone does love you even when you don’t love yourself. If a certain person ever sees this.. Yes this is exactly who you’re thinking.

May 27, 2023

I saw my father cheat on my mother with my now step-mother. My father use to have my now stepmom over to our house a lot when my mother was not home. I walked in on them once when they were....um...busy. My father always bribed me with candy, money, and even new toys if I didn't say anything to my mom. I never said anything. This went on for about a year. My parents did finally split up. Ironically, it was my father who filed for divorce. He had apprently told my mom he had "just" met someone else. I never had the heart to tell my mother the truth. For whatever reason, she loved my father. She fought the divorce until she finally gave in and signed the papers. My father and stepmother have since married and had a couple of kids of their own. I don't really speak to either one of them.

May 27, 2023

My dad passed away from COVID and then ten days later my sister passed away from COVID and so my dads funeral was coming up and then my ex broke up with me a few days before my dads funeral and I was heart broken so I had two funerals to deal with and then my dog who I consider my baby died from a aggressive dog bite it was so bad her intestines were out and she was also pregnant, and so I had to bury her too and then recently I found out that my ex has been talking to someone else for a week now and it mattered to me bc we promised to tell each other when we found someone else so we wouldn’t be lead on but he didn’t tell me so I’ve been feeling like shit and now I’ve even written letters to my family if I ever just end it there and then.

May 27, 2023

idk if this makes sense but i dont even have the energy to be sad anymore?? like im not numb im just kind of existing and i always feel sorta like unreal and lethargic and i dont understand it. i wanna live and have fun like other kids my age but i dont feel like trying anymore and i wanna get help but i really hate the idea of ppl knowing things abt me and it feels like my life is falling apart right in front of me and i cant do anything abt it. all of my friends are getting sick of me and it feels like theyre all slowly pushing me out of the friend group by barely/not interacting w me and i get weird intrusive thoughts all the time and i feel so guilty abt them even though ik i cant control them but it just feels so gross that i could even like create that thought? and ive been sleeping so much lately but not showering much even though i play sports and go to school and all that and i feel like im such a disgusting person like why cant i fucking do anything bruh

May 27, 2023

I feel like I wasn’t made to live long I honestly don’t think I can handle living a full life I’m only 15 but I don’t think I can go on that much longer it’s like I don’t wanna kms but I don’t wanna live either and I can’t stop feeling this way idk how to rlly explain it :/ but I need to put more characters down so ig here a story I’ve like this guy for a long time and I think he like me but he so attached to this one girl and he keeps going back to her but when their not together we talk all the time and honestly we almost did something idk imma just ignore him now idrc as much anymore but it’s was like that for 3 yrs and we’re friends but in a weird not just friends but not more than friends but yeah I just feel like I can’t handle living that long it’s already staring to get to me

May 27, 2023