When I was 2 years old, a few days after my birthday, my mom and dad got into a huge fight. My dad was always smashing things in the house, and standing outside of my preschool just to watch. He was always trying to take me away, sneak in one night to grab me from bed. Multiple school days were shut down because he showed up. One day when he was drunk, he killed my mom in front of everyone at our preschool, and the little kids had to go home covered in blood.
I've grown up now, living with my other family. Recently, we got a call from the county jail, telling us that he had gotten out and they were doing everything they could to look for him. After doing hours of research, I found videos of court cases.
He was charged with child abuse and abduction. What really worries me now is that he knows our neighborhood.
TW Warning: mention of $u!ç!d3
I’m 9 on the internet and I’ve been told many things that weren’t yk.. child friendly. I seemed to form a addiction on the internet and It started getting out of hand to the point where People on discord would be one of the reasons why I want to commit suicide. My parents never rlly cared for me and they abused me for so long now but I’m just too scared to reach out because I don’t know what to do. I hate myself so much but I can’t bother to do anything about It because at this point, I might die. My parents body shamed me which made me insecure and gave me trust issues. I have to act okay just to not worry ppl but It’s getting so tiring, Plus I’m a therapist to people online which is so draining. Today is my dead grandpa’s birthday, My grandma apparently has a mental problems according to my mom who has cried several times due to her statements and actions she have done in this household which means my grandma screams, Cries, And stuff like that because someone “stole her money” and blamed It on my dad. My sleep schedule is messed up, I’m getting skinny, I’m so ugly, I hate It how I’m so dumb. I could never look myself straight in the mirror and think I would be beautiful, Because that’s not true. I’m not beautiful compared to other people. I’m just too scared to speak out because I’ll only be called an attention seeker and stuff yk. I’ve cried too many times because of this. This isn’t even half of my problems. I’ll do a part 2 of current situations that are happening If this gets posted but I really need advice, Please. I hate how I have to deal with this at 9. No one cares for me and no one will ever know until the day I die I guess. It hurts watching my happiness fade away, I miss my old self. I wish I could just be hugged right this second by anybody.
me and this guy at my school use to mess around, i had a crush on him, he's good looking, smart, funny, everything you look for in a guy, we were friends for about a month a half before winter break started, we hugged, he would always dab me up when he saw me, we would hold hands, he would stare at me in class, he asked for my phone number one day, we texted, everything was going good and i thought we were gonna take things to the next step sooner or later, until one day when he said he got his phone taken away, and about a week later he had it back, but he never texted me. then winter break came along. he never texted me over the break, never heard a word from him. winter break was over and school started back and we never talked again like we used too. he never dabbed me up again, he stopped holding my hand, stopped looking at me in class, stopped texting me, he ghosted me. and til this day, 2 months later, i still don't know why, and i'm too afraid to ask because he's the "popular" guy. he will tell someone and it will get around the whole school. i should've known he was a red flag when he never talked to me or even looked my direction when he was around his "popular" friends. he's now talking to a new girl, has been for about 2-3 weeks now, and he's doing all the things with her that he did with me. and another thing, she's my friend's best friend. hearing her talk about the things they do and what he says to her and seeing them in the halls, it's literally what we used to do. and the thing is, i still like him. i feel horrible because i know i shouldn't, i have no clue what to do.
