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I am a bisexual, gender fluid, 17 almost 18 year old. My cousin was older than me. I was around 8 at the time and they were 12, they came out and helped me discover myself. We live pretty far from each other, different states. I hadn’t heard from them in years. They would’ve been 16 around this time. One day, I came home from school and was thrilled. I won top student of my grade, certificate in hand and golden trophy in the other. The mood was different. Absolutely drastic. “It’s all her fault!” I heard, an angry Aunt yelled, slamming a piece of paper in front of me. I was confused. It was my fault? I grabbed the letter and saw the familiar writing of my cousin’s writing. Small drops of red were on the paper and the ending of the letter was sloppier than the rest. It was a… note. A note for after. A note for me. It was thanking me for being supportive, even if I was younger. It said how Grandma was degrading, how she told them to off it because they weren’t normal. My certificate was ripped out of my hands and torn in two, my aunt pointing at me with tears in her eyes as she blamed ME for it. I was thankful my mom was supportive, because she was quick to reprimand the woman I used to call my aunt. It’s been years since that incident and EVERYDAY… Everyday I wonder if things could’ve been different..

June 17, 2023

i am married with a one kid. But am secretely having an affair with my sister in law. We used to date back in high school. I loved her alot and since in Kenya its illegal to be gay she suggested i fall in love with her brother then invite her to my house. I love my hubby but iam in love with his sister. I know its wrong but i dont know what to do

June 17, 2023

Am i the asshole because I kind of resent my best friend for killing himself? I know how that makes me sound- i understand where he comes from and why he would do it seeing as he has a very abusive and neglectful dad while his mom was a drunk in another state. Not to mention everyone at his school hated him. Now that we have the reasons why he did what he did i wanna get to how he killed himself. He blew his brains out. Which is a typical way to kill yourself but he did it on the phone with me. A facetime too. Not only is that traumatic but he was also my only friend. My literal only friend. So i was sent into a downward spiral with my mental health. Which caused me to become a therapist friend but also caused me to cling to any friendship like i would cling to a gift from him. But instead of finding good friends i found very toxic people who gave me more mental issues than there are animals in a zoo. And because of my many issues it made me become very suicidal. But i promised my friend id never commit. So i didnt for a long time. And then i tried and failed. Never being able to vent because i was the therapist. Always being made fun of. And then i got a call. From my dead friend. I really thought he faked his death and i picked up the phone to his older brother (who had been in the army) sobbing and holding a piece of paper from my friend. It was his suicide note. I was first and last love. He left me money. I gave it to his brother so he could move away from his dad. I have no idea where he got $10000 from but his suicide note said i was the only girl he ever loved and he loved me till death. Which made me very weary of relationships. Am i the asshole? Please be honest. No one ever tells me the truth..

June 17, 2023

My mom sorta verbally abused my dad and he thinks it’s ok, I can’t say anything to her or defend him bc then she plays the bad guy and makes you feel guilty. She always tells him he’s fat or he needs to lose weight, sometimes she doesn’t let him eat anything. There’s a lot more I don’t wanna share but, I’m so worried he’s going to unalive himself and it seems there’s nothing I can do. He tries to smile his way through the mental abuse but it’s obvious he’s very depressed. I wish I could tell him that it’s not okay what my mom does, but he wouldn’t believe me and say that she’s right.

June 16, 2023

I hate the people that I call my best friends, they try to tell me that I’m not ugly but when it comes to me getting rated and violated they don’t stand up for me. It’s like they want me set up. I hate it so much I’ve cried for nights at the fact that nobody finds me at least decent, I think I look good in photos but when I ask them they lie to me and say they are but when it comes to sending them to someone else they allow me to get dissed. It just sucks that I can’t get anyone like they can and I am left out. I’ll get fed up and I’m at the point where I am and I wanna leave. I don’t wanna be here if all I am is someone to laugh at and diss. I hate myself.

June 16, 2023

Here’s a Regret- So in like November of 2019 i was around 12 years old and i was at my grandparents house and i was reading, the bible. My grandma is very religious so i couldn’t have my phone at all or anything other then a bible. Then she comes inside to the room i was in on the phone(facetime) with my favorite cousin ever he was 26 i think and she was talking to him about something i wasn’t really paying attention. but she called my sister into the room to see him and talk to him cause he lives really far away so we could see him and so my sister goes and talks to him and when it’s my turn i hadn’t gotten up from reading in time to talk to him before he had to go back to work. i didn’t think much of it and went back to reading, fast forward January 17 2020 i come home from school to find my parents crying in silence in the kitchen to tell me that my cousin had khs. And i feel so much guilt every single day thinking, what if i’d talked to him? what if we had talked to him longer would he have stayed? and i hate myself for it every day because why didn’t i get up sooner?

June 16, 2023

When I was little my brother sexually did stuff with me. I didn't know what any of it meant. He asked me to do sexually stuff with him, when I said I didn't want to he threatened to tell my parents. I was little at the time and I pretended that I forgot the things my brother did to me. Me and my brother are very close and we both pretend we don't even remember. I've never talked to him about it. What should I do?

June 16, 2023

i kind of hate my old best friend. we were friends since we were around 12 until a year or so ago, thought we did take a separate gap year when she moved away. she hates me. i used to toy with her emotions (she was in love with me). and tho i really liked her as well i could never commit to her. i was infatuated with her. i have many mental health issues and suffer from severe depression. she was the only person that could help with this. but when she officially left our friendship/relationship (we were kind of dating at the time) i just couldn’t help but be extremely angry with her and hate her. the hatred has gone quite a bit but i still get these moments where i can’t help but hate her. little does she know tho that i am so insanely in love with her and i always have been

June 16, 2023

I grew up making shtty decisions because of peer pressure and the internet. They got even worse when family problems started popping up out of nowhere. One day, out of the blue, I decided to stay at someone’s house and didn’t let my parents know until they eventually called the cops to find me. As I was walking out of that persons home the cop jokingly asked me if I had any drugs on me, i laughed a bit and stayed silent and he shrugged it off.. I was a minor, and I was carrying around a wx pen. I still wonder what would’ve happened if he ever found out.

June 16, 2023

I was a sophomore in high school when I went to stay at my mothers house since I had Drama practice after school. We finish drama and R and M go to wait for us while E comes with me to go ask to hang out. Keep in mind I’ve been living with my grandma since 13 since my mother decided she wanted to kick me out. So we went and asked my moms bf at the time and then a woke argument started because I asked him to call my grandma to get my grandmas permission, since I live with her. He basically shrugs me off and calls me mom who was a CNA at the time while she’s at work. My moms upset because he called her clearly by the tome in her voice and says no and that’s the end of it for him. I once again ask him to call my grandma and he tells me I’m being disrespectful and I’m going to follow my mothers rules. After that we argued again and E is already walking back into town at this point. My moms bf then proceeded to tell me to get my stuff and get out, kind you I’m only 15 at this point. So I grab everything I brought with me, which was a duffle bag, school backpack, and a few other things and caught up with E crying like crazy because I just got kicked out. We met up with R and M and we all start going back to M’s place and I know my mother is very abusive so I’m not going with her if she ended up showing up. I guess sometime during us walking my moms bf called her saying I left. My mom finds us right as we make it to M’s house and immediately starts screaming for me to get in the car. I go into a panic attack and R and E stand in front of me and M is on the phone with the police. My mom threatens to hit them and everything else. Years later my mom and I are on decent terms and I asked her about it. She proceeded to stick up for him and say “you should’ve come and visited more often and it wouldn’t have happened.” My mothers ego is worth more than her child’s mental health.

June 16, 2023