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All my life in every school I've been made fun of for my weight and it's really hard because it's my main insecurity and I've tried to lose weight but it's not easy because my mom makes the food and usually she wants to get fast food, and I had a nice friend group in aftercare of 4 two boys to girls, we would all have fun and make jokes until one of them found out I like them and then the other girl left so I started drifting away from the boys and then one of my other friends started dating him and I was happy for them as a friend should be but they all thought I was jealous and told me to get over him because I accidentally took screenshots of him on snap due to a glitch in my phone but they didn't believe me then they started harassing me about asking if I still had the pictures even tho I deleted them that same day it happened. Later on they stopped but I know they still talk about it and try to do things that'll make me upset, and the boy I had liked his now ex-girlfriend told me all the things they'd say behind my back like “im a hippo” and they were doing dad joke and when we were friends I told them my dad had passed but the guy I had liked said “that's why my dad died” and there is this other guy who wasn't in the group but he has always been mean to me ever since we met he makes mean comments here and there like “knock knock, (who's there) not ur dad” and “your a fucking fat ass” and on top of that I have stuff going on at home where I feel like I do everything around the house while my mom sits there I mean she cooks dinner but I clean it every night and when the living room is a mess I clean it and I maintain my room and my bathroom clean all the time while hers is a mess but she wants my help to clean it when she hasn't helped me with mine anytime it's a mess with her stuff and there could be times where I'm tired and need a break so I choose not to do the dishes and then she yells at me about it I just wish she knows how I feel and how life is at school but it would break her heart and I can't do that to her even tho she's been sleeping with two guys behind my back when it only been a year since my dad passed but I still love her, she all I have left plus my sister.

July 4, 2023

I still like my best friend but we are in different schools.

July 3, 2023

I threatened my math teacher and I fucking regert it. I liked her which was weird asf. But back then she changed my life. And now it’s her fault I despise life and her. It’s also why I wish I was dead. Even back then I made up for the things I did to her. Be her teacher assistant. We liked eachother (enjoyed eachother not liked liked) she said she forgave me but hey she left me:)

July 3, 2023

well, i’m 13. a few weeks ago i started snapping this boy and we were fw eachother. that same weekend we meet up at the movies and fcked. (my friend came with me for support since i was a virgin). so fast forward a week and i have the same friend over at my house. i noticed she was acting off and was texting the guy i fcked a lot. so me being me i searched threw their messages when she was asleep the next morning. and sure enough they had phone sex, talked about f*cking eachother, sent nüdes to one another, and flirted, etc. i was mad and made her leave my house. but i liked this guy so much and me and him were talking because we couldn’t date due to age (i’m a 7th grader he’s a junior). i can’t tell anyone this because she will tell people what i’m did.

July 3, 2023

When I was 16, my dad would touch me while I was sleeping and often times I would wake up from it, but I am naturally a heavy sleeper so it seemed he had been doing it for several minutes. I am adopted and knew that my parents never viewed me equal to their other biological children but I always thought I was over thinking and being too critically analyzing. His first time was when I was sleeping on the couch and he would just touch my abdomen and head, nothing alarming. It would escalate over several weeks and eventually I could feel his tongue when he would try and kiss me and his hand would go under my pants. He never r@ped me but I never told anyone about it and I’ve never confronted anyone bc I didn’t want to break up my family or worse have them turn against me. I felt humiliated. The thing that hurt me the most was I was also SA by his father, my grandfather from age 7-10 and they would babysit us at their house. I never told my parents about that instance bc my sister eventually told them and they disregarded her statements and continued to put us kids in their care. Now I feel I can’t trust men nor be touched by them and I can’t stand to be around my dad but I also can’t tell anyone why I hate him and they all assume I have an immature vendetta against him. The worst part was that my dad and I were incredibly close and would talk and do things together but I didn’t have anger towards him at first, only humiliation at myself. It wasn’t until college started that I realized how messed up his actions were and none of it was my fault. I had blamed myself for his actions and knew that he would never do that to my sister since she was his “biological” child and my mom would completely side with my father accusing me of lies since we did not have the best relationship. My worst fear still is that the secret will come out but no one will believe me and my family will abandon me bc of it.

July 3, 2023

I’ve always felt like “that” friend. I never thought much of their behaviour and actions towards me but tonight made me realise they don’t truly care about me like friends should. I’m the last option for them - I’m always forgotten about and walked over. Tonight they went out for drinks, they didn’t invite me. One of them lives out of town, so they drive past my house to get into town. Never thought to invite me. I’ve gone above and beyond for them and they don’t seem to care. I thought of them as my sisters but in their eyes I just fill a space. I’ve spent the last hour or two in my bed, being questioned my by Mum as to why I’m not with them. I feel so small.. so unnecessary in their lives. I don’t know what to do. I’m so alone

July 3, 2023

Ever since I was little I was never able to express or label my emotions well. It’s hard for me to empathize with people and honestly I don’t know if I care that it doesn’t bother me. I mean sometimes it does because I want to feel what other people feel. I just don’t know how to connect with people. This has affected many, possibly all, of my relationships. No one knows what my personality is really like and honestly I don’t know either. It changes so much depending on who I’m with. It’s like each day I put on a new persona. Sometimes it’s very confusing and other times I don’t feel anything at all and can just fake everything. I don’t know how to worry (I think that’s the word I’m looking for) about this and fix it because I don’t know what the problem is

July 3, 2023

My boyfriend was killed in a incident trying to help a girl get out of a toxic relationship. I watched him go. I miss him so much and I can’t get the regret of getting involved out of my head. I’m angry at the world and the only thing keeping me from joining the man that saved my life is knowing what it would do to the people glad I’m still here but I want to go so bad. The gunshots and the memory of the incident keep me up at night, and haunt me 24/7 How do I live knowing this never would have happened if I didn’t try to help.

July 3, 2023

I just recently became friends with my ex. We weren’t friends for around 6 months before this and the break up had ended very poorly (he had emotionally cheated on me). During those 6 months I always talked to my friends about how much I hated his guys and never ever wanted to speak to him again. Thing is, I have Borderline Personality Disorder. So I let my emotions control me more than logic (in this case, not in the disorder as a whole). I didn’t really want to never speak to him. But It was so much easier to be angry than sad about it. Now, None of my friends understand how close we are. And it’s hard to admit that I was mainly the “crazy” one in the relationship. That I definitely exaggerated the things he did. And that he’s really not a bad person, he was just stupid and made a mistake(Which he has apologized for countless times). We both wish we could turn back time and not hurt each other. We’re super duper close now and I wouldn’t be alive without him. He’s seriously my bestfriend. How do I explain to my friends that were just meant to be?? Couple or not were amazing for each other, and have always helped each other out.

July 2, 2023

I like “never” go to school bc how I feel everyday, I am always there for my friend’s but no one know’s how I am feeling! When my friend’s is at they’re lowest and me also I just can’t handle both of us feeling our lowest so I I just like “hurt” myself so I just can focus on them ! Bc of everything I wa a this close to try to k!ll myself :)

July 2, 2023