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around the ages of 5-9 years old both of my brothers molested me. i don’t remember anything from before that. in second-third grade i had to visit my biological father after he got out of jail (lol he was in there for sexual assault or something so it’s fitting). long story short, i don’t remember much of those years either. growing up, my mom was the only one raising her 4 kids and therefore she was growing too. if i tried explaining myself when she wasn’t in the right or reacted to her mood in a negative way, she’d cut off my means of communication by either threatening me, hitting me, or slamming the door in my face. I am now about to be 16 years old with heavy trust issues and communication problems because of them. this is shit that took me YEARS to understand about myself. love isn’t real and people suck, getcho money up not yo funny up gang and forever and always remember that before everyone, you come first.

November 2, 2022

Kid (totally serious) "I'm going to drop out. I'll make money off of YouTube" Me "how many views are your videos getting?" Kid "I have 4 subscribers, so I just need a few more"

November 1, 2022

when i was 9 and my brother was 11, he asked me to have sex with him. he would beg me and even tried to pay me. he also told ne and my cousin if we didn’t take our pants off we had to leave the room. he also said if i let him touch me in a place he shouldn’t ever ask he would get me food because i was hungry. i don’t know what to do does this count as sh? i’ve had this information for awhile and only told my friends.

November 1, 2022

my grandmother got into a car accident once when I was younger and for some reason my brain kept telling me to giggle, go I turned away from my family hoping they wouldn't see. I couldn't control it & to this day I have no idea why I did that or why I couldn't stop. I wasn't happy that she was hurt. Maybe it was anxious laughter ? I really don't know but nobody in my family knows this :')

November 1, 2022

i have this one friend, i met him when i was in 8th grade but we didn’t really become super close until the summer before 10th. we started talking a lot and he would invite me to hang out with his other friends, i always had a lot of fun. school started and i was always by him. i had recently been broken up with so he was helping me through it. at the time i identified as lesbian, and he would say some really weird things like “if (my name) was straight we would be dating” and “i turned you lesbian” i would laugh it off but it always left weird to me. i had gotten into a new relationship and i was really happy. once i was in my relationship i noticed he became very clingy like he only wanted me for himself. he became very touchy and it made me really uncomfortable. he would make comments on my body and very sexual jokes involving me. he’s the first man i’ve ever felt comfortable with bc of certain things but now i dread going to school because of the things he says and does. i broke up with my gf and he still was clingy. i told him why i hate people touching me and he said “i’ll never do it again, or make comments about you.” now he will put his arm around my shoulder and i would shrug it off and he would say “sorry” but it never sounded sincere. he still makes comments about my body and idk what to do.

October 31, 2022

Not really a secret, more of a huge regret. When I was 10 my grandfather started to get really sick and ended up in the ICU. I remember that ever since I was young I was always super anxious to talk to people on the phone no matter who it was and sometimes I would just outright refuse to talk. So whenever my grandma and grandpa would call from the hospital to talk to me and my sister I would always be super hesitant and my parents would kinda have to push me to talk to them. The day before he passed away, they called and it was one of the days I refused to talk so I didn’t. The next day at school my mom came and picked me and my sister up early and told us he passed away and all I can remember from that day is me beating myself up over the fact that I couldn’t be brave enough to talk to him one last time and tell him that I loved him. If I could go back in time and change it I would.

October 31, 2022

Yesterday I was at a store and there was a child, maybe 9 or 10, and from the way she interacted with me I culd tell you exactly how her mother would interact with a person. This child stood next to me as I looked through the clothes, her arms crossed, huffed loudly at me that I was in her way, then complained when I picked something that she wanted it.

October 31, 2022

CW/TW I cheated on my first boyfriend. I was very depressed and I felt so alone. This person came along that was even more flawed than me, and it felt good to have his attention. It was during quarantine, so we talked over video and audio calls. He used me when I was so vulnerable. When he knew I was not in my right mind and I couldn't make decisions for myself. I felt like I couldn't stop, or else he would commit sewer side. I broke up with my boyfriend because I was so guilty, and I've never told anyone. I'm so scared that people will find out and hate me. I just got the courage to block him yesterday. What if he tells people because I stopped talking to him?

October 30, 2022

I’ve dissociated quite a lot of the things that have hurt me, I’ve forgotten the details and specifics to what people have done to me in situations that have changed me. It’s like my brain has markers on those memories and when I get to close I know the vague idea and back off. But the things I’ve done that have wrecked my life still live with me every day so specifically and it’s like I’m always back there. I’m not too sure what to do. It’s gotten to the point where my self worth is being affected in such a negative way. How do I let go

October 30, 2022

I came close to taking my life twice. Once in 7th grade and once in 10th. And I guess one secret I have is that most of my depression really started to sink in because of my mom. My depression and anxiety was always there but with my mom around, it felt like it wasn’t cause I thought I out of everyone I could trust, it would be her, but I was wrong. There was a complicated situation between my parents during 7th grade and ultimately, my mom said that she was spending about a week over her sisters come to find out, she left. She would call my father here and there but never called me to try to talk to me. After I lost all my friends and everyone, she was who I thought would never betray me, but I was wrong. They’re still together and I’m close to graduating high school but it’s not how it used to be.She keeps saying I can talk to her but I can’t. How are you suppose to talk to someone when they are part of the reason? How do you tell them that they’re the reason why you’re fcked up and picked up smoking and drinking is because of her? I feel like she doesn’t deserve it but at the same time I just wanna scream at her and just say “go fck yourself.”

October 30, 2022