To preface this, my uncle is a very quiet guy. Keeps to himself (found out in my early 20’s he was not all there mentally and we’re not even blood related, growing up everyone just acts like we are and denies it if it’s brought up.) During my middle school years, I had a very sexual awakening due to some accidental gay porn I saw online. Mind you, I come from a very religious background and my pheromones were raging. We shared a bedroom, along with my brother, so it was the 3 of us in the one room. Whenever my uncle fell asleep and it was just us two in the room, I would run my hands along the bare parts of his body. Slowly lifting up his shirt and feeling on his chest. Whenever he would start squirming or seemingly waking up, I would stop until I heard his snoring again. The farthest I went was giving him a bj, while he was sleeping. As far fetched as it sounds, I was terrified he partially came in my mouth and onto himself. I just left him there, belt unfolded and pants unbuttoned. I ran out of the room so fast and didn’t come back into the room until night time. The following day, he seemed normal. Probably acted like he had a wet dream. To this day, I feel really bad that I SA my uncle when he was sleeping..
In 6th grade I was very popular, like. VERY, and I had this somewhat of a crush on my girl best friend (I am a boy) All throughout middle school I could never confess to her because Best friends into lovers never work out. Plus she dated lots of guys at our school to, she always came to me with relationship advice, or even cried in my arms when she was heartbroken by another guy, and it hurt me, that I never had that chance with her, that i could never be that guy to fill her heart with love, rather than tear it away, as middle school came to an end, I dropped and cut off many friends, because I found out they were fake, slowly it got to the point where we basically had to pick a side, she had friends I didn't like and I had friends she didn't like, and instead of choosing a side... I chose her. I dropped everyone and maybe only talked to 3 people, because I wanted her... but in the end, she slowly drifted away, throughout high school when the pandemic happened from covid, we had lots of free time, so we hung out every so often, and she had this "attachment issue" with only me where she would hug me the entire time we hung out no matter who we were with she was always holding on to me, and when she looked up at me, I felt a connection in our eye contact, but I highly doubted she actually liked me... so I tried to not think anything of it. But now we're in 10th grade, and I haven't spoke to her in forever. Everytime I try to talk to her she responds either with "K" "No" some short message or doesn't respond at all... I sit and question everyday what could've happened if I just told her how I feel, even if I was rejected in wouldn't have mattered because in the end, we drifted apart anyway, and I don't know what to do
