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I came out when I was 14 as a lesbian. I met a guy who loved me for me, and I love him. But I couldn't tell him this or anyone else because they think I'm gay. It's been years, and it still hurts my heart thinking about him.

July 14, 2023

Since I was like ten my life wasn't very good I know others have it worse and I shouldn't complain but I just need to write it down. I've always told people I was fine because I didn't want to worry them. I've been struggling with anxiety and not just small anxiety but people think im faking it because I want attention. I used to self-harm but I managed to stop, but recently the people I thought were my friends started rumors about me that I was faking injuries to make it look like I self-harm and that triggered me and I started doing it again. My so called friends started ignoring me because I was a pick me girl, they can't even insult me with the right gender, all because I thought I could open up to them and told them about my problem. All of that made me snap at my mom and the first thing she said was u know u can trust me and tell me those thing, don't get me wrong I love her, but if I'm not telling you is because I know u have worse to deal with... Sorry it was so long I guess I just needed to let it out...

July 14, 2023

I watch your tiktoks. Would like this to be anonymous. I was raped by the age of 10. For half my life after that I had to see his face almost every week. After I got raped the following year my grandad passed away. I was depressed and just was about to start secondary. In secondary i was a loner and eventually I got bullied for 5 years. In 2019 finally told my mum about my rapist and she got my uncles and dad toi beat him up but he still got married. The same year, I was peer pressured and fat shamed, un loved so I turned to Snapchat to boys but in the end got groomed into sending nudes. 2020, the whole school found out about my nudes cos of this girl who I thought was my sister. Police, teachers got involved. They called my mom. She supported me but was disappointed. 2021, covid hits. I'm very depressed I still feel disgusting about myself. 2022, currently 17, positive for the future and Inshaa Allah I will love myself more. I have better connections spiritually with my religion.

July 14, 2023

If I ever killed myself just know that I’ve tried. I’ve tried extremely hard to keep myself sane. It’s getting hard being my own therapist because I’m unpredictable. No one knows much about me, they think they do but they don’t. No one knows that I go through stuff because I hide it so well and I don’t talk about it. I have people rant to me and I’ll help them but I won’t do the same. I really don’t like seeking for help even when I’m in need. I like doin everything on my own. That’s part of my stubbornness . I don’t want people to just think I up and killed myself, this comes from years of built up anger, sadness, and depression. I used to not understand why people would kill themselves, I would be like “why would you take your own life like that?” (Disregarding their situation) sadly I understand why…

July 13, 2023

When I was around 4 years old my older cousins SA me. It happened on multiple occasions and one of them would always tell me it was a game and if I didn’t want to play that he would tell all my cousins to pick on me and tell my aunt I was doing bad things. Then, another one of my cousins SA me and she would always try and sleep over, and sleep in the same bed as me to do things to me at night. There was this time where I was taking a bath and she came in having me go on the floor to do things to me and told me if I were to ever say anything, I’d be in big trouble because it would all turn out to be my fault. I’m older now but I realized I have some anxiety and a bit ptsd from it and not sure how to handle it because I feel like I can’t talk to anyone. What do I do?

July 13, 2023

I sometimes wish I could die. My life may seem good in other eyes but it’s not the best. My mother and father are not together and I feel like they don’t care bout me since neither one actually spends time with me and my father calls me every name possible. My siblings hate me sometimes and they also call me names. The only people who really care about me anymore is my aunt and my uncle. I feel like a burden to everyone sometimes.

July 13, 2023

I can't say ily to anyone don't know why but it scaythe shit out if me even writing freaks me out it's very very rare I say it like when someone says ily I can't respond because I don't even know what it means I don't know how it feels never felt it before so unless I'm address I a fictional character or an object I don't know what it means to feel loved even tho they always tell me im loved sadly I don't know what it feels like maybe I never will

July 13, 2023

this just happened and i’m absolutely terrified i been sleeping in the basement lately cuz the bed it more comfortable that one in my room and bigger tv well this night i decided to do a face mask so went to my bathroom when i realized the toilet paper was taken off the little handle thing and nobody but me ever goes in the basement and i inly stay in the main area so still other rooms and closest hardly ever seen so i freaking out cuz i think someone else is in my basement idk what to do and i’m to scared to check alone at night… my dog just started barking at the door

July 13, 2023

This is a secret I have my parents don’t know that I know that my 2 oldest siblings have different dad from me, watching the oldest who is a female now 21 break down and cry when she found out hurt me the most cause I hate seeing my family cry and one day her real dad messaged her and she broke down, she moved out the house and my parents don’t want me having contact with her and it hurts me cause she was a big role in my life.

July 13, 2023

Ever since middle school I had this huge problem with my body and how it takes in heat, you see I get hot very fast and my skin gets red very easily, whenever Im stressed or doing very little at gym or whenever im nervous my skin and hands turn all red and I get all sweaty which makes me insecure. I love sports. Always have ever since I was a child. But the fact I get hot from the littlest things stops me from playing what I want to play. Im afraid people might judge. Also I have very big thighs which make me sweat alot more and sweat causes an odor and im so conscious of people around me thinking they think I stink. Whenever someone even mentions the word "stink" I automatically assume its me. I really just want to do the things I love but im afraid to ask my parents whom im not close with for help. no one knows this about me but im so glad i got this off my chest. Btw my sweat problem is so bad that itd be winter and like 3 degrees and id still be hot if im in a regular coat

July 13, 2023