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FYI this is going to be a little long. So I (15)f have a grandfather (56)m that weirds me out. Some back story, every since me and my sisters were kids out grandfather would also smack our butts in a way that made us uncomfortable. My sister(19) was the most upfront about it and tell us it made her uncomfortable. She never said it to out grandmother or grandfather but she told us and out parents. It made me very uncomfortable as well but i not as upfront about things so i never really mentioned it. There was this one time I remember were i was laying on a bad in a living room so that night he got in with me under the covers. My nanny and sister and cousin were in the living room too. So when he got under the covers with me, he kept putting my hand in his pants. I would yank my hand away and he would just grab it back and do over and over. I don’t knows why but i just couldn’t move. He finally stopped after he did it like 7 times. I was so relieved. After that he really never went that far just kept smacking our butts. I haven’t told anyone about this and I don’t if i should. Another time something happened he was drunk and he smacked my butt again but this time it was way more sexual than what he normally does. And the whole ride home i was just thinking about everything. This last Sunday i was sitting on the couch and he sat beside and he kept touching my side and my back and he was going down to my pants and kept putting his finger on it like kinda how you pull then down but i was sitting down. I would move and he would keep doing it. One time my sister said something about again and my cousin called her weird and she over sexualize it. He has always touched me whenever he could. I just hate it so much. My sister still thinks it Will is very weird and she had a dream about it and him confusing to us. I don’t really know if i am overthinking or overreacting about this but I honestly needed to get this off my chest and tell someone. So thanks for listening and please let me know what i should do about this.

August 7, 2023

I'm currently 14 but i want to kill myself so badly. Ive tried it about 23 times and they all failed, the one that most of my friends know about is the time i consumed 30 pills within a day and while at school, some of the pills were for my cramps that day but when i got home i kept taking pills among pills i never stopped, i kept laughing all night not sure if what to do, I had the urge to take more as time passed, I couldn't cry i just sat there laughing at absolutely nothing, when i told my closest friend about it she said it was okay to feel this way and that she understood, but i never truly believed that. I told another friend later but all she did was yell at me over and over gave me help lines to call and told me "YOU NEED HELP" I had the urge to stop being a people pleaser and tell her straight up that I knew I needed help but forcing me to get it isn't going to do jack shit but I didn't. after a while it made me realize, I was the one there for her the most. She clung on to my friends and my friends loved her, not seeing her 'everything is about me' side. She never checks up on me but I always do, she always takes about boys and when I have something important to say and I tell her she always dismissed it, then brought up another subject about her and things that she likes. It makes me feel sick whenever she texts me and I don't know how to deal with it anymore. [Sorry for the shitty spelling and run-on sentences]

December 1, 2022

I know this is short but I wish I could end it all I'm truly tired of feeling how I feel no matter what I do nothing makes me happy anymore I can't stop thinking about what's going to happen once I move out will I even make it on my own or will I end up like my uncle and die alone in a ditch some where I hope I can keep these feelings of fear and anxiety down I don't want anyone to know I'm struggling I want them to think I'm always happy and carefree

December 1, 2022

I would talk to a lot of people online. I met this guy who was 16, I was 13. He seemed so kind and he would say the most sweetest things. But he would suddenly say things about moving on and finding someone new. I would lose my mind and beg and beg him not to leave me. He would finally tell me he was kidding and would act like he normally would. I remember the first time I saw a picture of him, I thought he was so handsome. I saw more, but then I kept getting the feeling that he was much older than 16. I eventually ghosted him, I blocked him and acted like I never knew him. About a year later I unblocked him and decided to text him. I’m not sure why I did. He texted me almost immediately saying how he missed me and how he didn’t look at another person all that time. I once again was swept away. I was either 14-15 then and remembered about his age. I felt uncomfortable again and blocked him once again. His bio still says my name with a blue heart next to it. I have not told anyone about this.

December 1, 2022

I was raped when I was in fifth grade and am now fourteen I haven't told anyone this before because I was bullied because people thought I was a sl*t and still don't have many friends. This has traumatized me but I finally told my friends 3 years later and I still haven't fully recovered. I love my friends but I suffer from severe anxiety and depression because of one incident.

December 1, 2022

Introducing myself to everyone with a fake personality. That’s my biggest regret because now I can’t be myself around them. They don’t really know me they a version of me that I personally hate but they love and I’m too scared to show them the real me. I’m scared they won’t accept and that they’ll leave me because I wasn’t open to them about myself, that I was fake around them.

December 1, 2022

I sometimes wish something would happen to my husband so I can start a relationship with my co-worker. I don’t want to cheat, and I don’t want to get a divorce either since we have a daughter, but I’ve fallen for my younger male co-worker. Since my husband got a new job 6 months ago, he has come home from work, passed out, wake up to eat, then passed out again leaving me to fend for myself and our child until the next morning when he wakes up to go to work and repeat the cycle. We haven’t had s3x in almost 3 months because of this pattern. My co-worker though, asks me about my day, makes jokes with me, looks at me with soft eyes that makes me feel like I’m wanted, and when we touch on accident it makes my heart race. I want him so much. Sometimes, when I catch him looking at me, I feel like he feels the same. I would never do anything, but I’ve been having increasing thoughts of scenarios with my husband dy!ng and being able to make a move on my co-worker. It makes me feel so sick, and I can’t tell anyone for advice cause I know they’d look at me like a monster.

December 1, 2022

I kept havibg this dream and it was always a boy on a tree and he was hung by the neck and he was dead and smiling and there was a woman smreaming next to the tree angrily idk why but each time i had the dream there was another child on three and they were always smiling despite being dead. In the end the dream stopped after the tree was emptied and i could only see my self on it and the womna who would scream was gone but there were 2 other woman one was shorter and in a white rove and she seems happy and the other was a tall burnt bloody woman. She seemed proud or the robed woman. After that the drean stopped.

December 1, 2022

One time when I was four I got caught watching c0rn and my mom wouldn’t look at me and told me she was disgusting I then said my cousin made me even though she didn’t and now she likes sending nudes to old men

November 30, 2022

ive liked the same girl since year 7, im in year 9 now. We talked a fair amount for a few months but then stopped, i guarantee she has zero feelings for me but we did recently become friends. I just wish i had the courage to tell her how i feel. We talked quite a bit this week and im very happy about it, i dont like her in a way as if i want to be together because that complicates things, i just wish we could be friends.

November 30, 2022