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I’ve always struggled thinking that I’m not good enough. That I don’t have much to offer to the world. Most recently, I started this past year attending college. During this time, I fell in love (if you can call it love) with an international student from Spain who plays golf for the university. He seriously is everything I ever wanted in a man. He’s a sweet and passionate man. However, I always let that fear of not being “good enough” get to me and I build this wall around me so I don’t get hurt. We had a class together and he would be kind and try to talk to me. With my body language and facial expressions, I would only push him away. There’s nothing I can do now. I hope one day I’m able to change my mindset. P.S. I’m also a man.

December 9, 2022

I’m extremely suicidal. I don’t plan my life as if I’m going to grow old. I live in the now and enjoy what I can. But it’s not enough. I’m going to be 23 in August, actually my golden birthday, im just not sure if I’ll see it. I keep telling myself one more tomorrow and it’s gotten me this far. Anyways I’m planning a trip to Portland and Seattle. But I don’t think I want to come home anymore. I looked up paths to get me to the Oceanside and see what I’ve always wanted to see. Maybe I’ll find my home there. Maybe the universe will take me back. Idk I just wanted to get that off my chest. Maybe I’ll come back to my home here or I’ll never come back. At least I will have finally made it to the cities I adore

December 9, 2022

When I was about 3-5 I had a little cousin that's about 1 1/2 years younger than me. One night we were having a sleep over and we slept in the same bed but while we were watching cartoons he asked if I wanted to play a game. Of course I said yes because I was a curious little girl but then he said his parents play it all the time. When we started playing he told me I had to take off my panties and I did then he did the same. Then he got on top of me and put his privates in mine. I've never told anyone and I don't know what to do now I'm 13 almost 14 and I don't want him to get in trouble because he didn't know it was wrong but it still hauntes me

December 9, 2022

So I had a crush on this guy. We talked a lot and on New Years I got so excited because he started talking to me first. Usually I have to talk to him first. So after I left this party for New Years we got really deep into our convo. Then he started to suspect me liking him. And I kept denying it saying that I didn’t like him when I did. And he said “if you do just say it” but I just said that I didn’t. Then he stopped texting me for like 10 mins. I had a feeling I did something wrong so I said sorry. He then said “idc” and when I went back to school the next week he never talked to me again. He eventually humiliated me in front of his friends once and when I asked him about it he said he didn’t care about me standing there embarrassed. I eventually got over him :/

December 8, 2022

Local family in a very small place I used to live, from ethnic minority, find their daughter has been sexually assaulted by local guy. They start asking around for contract killers - and, implausibly, considering how indiscreet and hapless they were about it, find one. The molesters death - just days later - is ruled as suicide. Everyone who knew him knew he didnt have a gun and didnt have suicidal tendencies. Even the coroner doesnt seem concerned that he managed to shoot himself in the side of the head, twice. Nothing ever comes of it. I know what happened, and why. And I've decided to keep my peace.

December 8, 2022

When I was younger I used to have dreams about fucking my cousin and I liked them and I liked the same guy from kindergarten but I regret it because he never liked me it was always someone else I wish he would just want me now I still like him but he doesn’t like me and I know who he likes and he knows I like him so basically he’s playing with my heart and the other guy keeps bugging me about liking him even though he has a girlfriend

December 8, 2022

I don't ever tell anyone but this is probably the most traumatizing thing I've ever seen and experienced. I was about 4 years old and me and my best friend Lynn she was 6. She was at my house and had to go home so me and my uncle were walking her home it was a very busy street and many cars were out. We finally got to her house and we were waiting to cross the street. Her mom walked out the front door and Lynn was so excited to see her mom she ran across the street. Lynn was struck by a car and later died at the scene. To this day I have felt so much regret becuase I was supposed to hold her hand. I have no idea if this was related at all but 4 years later I saw a ghost. I'll be honest it resembled Lynn but being 8 years old I was to scared and was balling my eyes out. The spirit was just standing at the end of my bed. It's weird becuase I so vaguely remember even though these incidents were so long ago. 17 now I still think to those days. And wonder.

December 8, 2022

I have a little less than two months left, and only my mom and dad know. My friends, my siblings, my teachers, nobody knows. I found out I had a brain tumor and cancer, and we can’t afford for me to fight in a hospital so I’m just going to accept death. I honestly don’t wanna tell anyone because I don’t want anyone to see my differently in my last couple of months.

December 8, 2022

I love my best friend. I've told him and it caused a rift in our friendship for about a year(we are both guys). Now though we are back to being friends, driving at night nd stargazing. We share music we share ideas and thoughts without repercussion or fear. We tell eachother our deepest fears and even speak on love. I've told myself that I'm fine with being friends and that I'm okay now. But I can't even think of another person in the same way as him. The hope is killing me slowly.

December 8, 2022

My mental health was at an all time low throughout half of 2019, all of 2020, and most of 2021. I wasn’t a good person at the time either. I would get mad at my sister and project how I felt onto her, hit her, push her, tell her how much I hated everything or how I wished I was dead, that I was going to kill or cut myself. I’d also hit my brother and get mad at him for anything, even just breathing too loud. I’d also argue with my mom a lot. And I never talked to my older brother. I was mad and ended up pushing them all away and bottling up how I felt. And now I don’t know how to apologize for any of it properly, especially since it all happened a while ago. But I’m getting help now and am taking medication for my anxiety and depression, so maybe I’ll be able to do it sometime in the future. At least I hope.

December 7, 2022