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When I was younger I wasn’t never taught right and wrong due to my mom never really never really being present, she was/is a meth addict and spent most of her time away or sleeping but anyway.my brothers and I were playing a game in our basement(this was the first and only time we ever did something like this) but the game was that you move around the room and when the light comes on you you just have your shirt up or pants down.( I was 5 at this time) but I had said something like”get nude” which was a new word I learned(but I did no what it meant) but I guess my moms boyfriend heard me say that and called me upstairs. I was up against the wall and he was hovering over me and he asked me what I wanted to know about being nude. I was so scared I was in trouble and I didn’t know what to say so I told him “what it’s like” he asked if I wanted to stay and watch him play video games and I said yes. After a few minutes he took me out to the garage to “show me something” he sat down and pulled out his thing and told me to suck it, when I just stood there he explained to me ‘like a bottle’ and pushed me down. So I did it. A few weeks later my brothers and I are watching a movie with him when one of my brothers say he is cold so my moms bf tells me to come with him to get a blanket he brought me downstairs into a room and had me bend over where he put it in me. It was very painful and I bled, which he said was just his finger bleeding. I have never told a single person this ever.

December 18, 2022

Hopefully no one knows who is writing this. At around the age of 9 I was raped by an older guy. He was around 15. I’m a boy too btw. We were just friends and he started touching me a lot so I thought nothing of it you know. But then it got worse. He used me make me do things and do things to me and I didn’t know what was happening he just told me never to tell anyone and this continued for too long at one point I even knew it was wrong but I yearned the attention I was getting from him and I wanted that to happen to me. Till a few years back when he moved away and I didnt need it anymore. But I feel shit about myself coz he gave me attention when others just fat shamed me and made fun of me. But he is the reason I’m gay today. Not gay actually but bi. I’ve never had the courage to talk to anyone about this.

December 18, 2022

A few weeks ago I was talking to my cousin(who’s older) about my little cousin seeing a therapist because she’s depressed. My older cousin then made a joke out of it and I told her that I too have been seeing a therapist for the past few years. She then asked why and I said because I’m also depressed and I have so many inner child traumas that I needed to heal from. She then asked if my childhood was that traumatic. Yes! I lost my mom when I was 2, my dad was a drug addict. He left my brother and I with my grandma for many many years. I never really had a home where I could called home. I was always picked on by kids because I didn’t have a mom. If this isn’t traumatic enough for a child then I don’t know what is. I also just lost my grandma 10 months ago. My life is a mess but I am now old enough to work and currently in college. I hope someday I will have a home of my own and fully healed from all these traumas. Some people will never understand because they didn’t grew up in a broken home.

December 18, 2022

I love one of my best friends enemy, everyone hates him. BUT IM TOO IN LOVE WITH HIM. he hates me back though. I feel like a horrible person and i don’t know what to do next. one day i hate him, the next i want to marry him. His hair and his eyes I GET ALL WARM OR WHATEVER. I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO, WHO TO LOVE, HOW TO MOVE ON IT JUST SUCKS ( thanks for your time)

December 18, 2022

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December 17, 2022

My fiancé used to be really abusive. Yes I am still with him. He used to hit and choke me even when I was pregnant both times. He went to jail one day for it but I had my dad bail him out because I thought I couldn’t live without him. His best friend was on the phone with me helping me cope for 4 days non stop. Just when I thought I could live without him, I get a call saying my dad had to pick him up…at 10pm at night. My fiancé used to watch hentai porn ALOT and when I first met him I told him I wasn’t okay with porn at all. I was a happy innocent Christian girl who didn’t even know that my belly ring was a weed leaf until he explained it. I’m not Christian anymore but I still don’t believe in porn in the relationship. He used to be caught and still low and gaslight me about it for ever. Even at 34 weeks pregnant he had sex with me then jerked off in the other room to some alien porn comic while I was speaking to my mom on the phone. I cried everyday because I never felt beautiful anymore and I felt like I had to make myself look better for him even if it meant surgery. I’m not surprised he lied and gaslight me about it because when I first met him he lied about his entire personality and I didn’t know until the first few weeks I flew from NY to AL for stay with him and his narcissistic family. Ps his family sends me death threats. I’d laugh if they saw this especially because his mom said she raised him to be an abuser. Anyways, he said he watches that porn because their boobs more around a lot and my boobs are a size B but could probably fit in an A cup…so now I focus on looking gorgeous because if k don’t spend money to get my nails and hair done I won’t feel pretty at all because my body isn’t his type. I don’t look like his anime porn.

December 17, 2022

I’m tired. I’m so tired, I want a break, people think my sarcasm is me being mean and rude but normally it’s a joke and me trying to start a convo. I got yelled at 2 days in a row for no reason then my parents expect me to go up and WANT to hang out and WANT to talk to them don't get me wrong I love them but they don’t understand me like they think they do. This is not as bad as the other ones but I need to get it out

December 17, 2022

When my friend was really drunk he wanted me to call his girlfriend and tell her how much he loved her and that he wanted to have a future with her and that everything in the end will be ok. I told her that and explained to her that my friend really loved her and was quite drunk. She never said I love you back and kept dismissing it or changing the topic. The next day they broke up.

December 17, 2022

When I was young, around 5 or so I remember waking up one morning in just my purple robe (that wasn’t tied together at all) and my underwear since I wasn’t wearing training bras at the time. My brother was laying next to me at that time aswell. I couldn’t remember what happened before or after that day. And just recently I have been hearing stories of sexual assault victims and how they were assaulted at a young age and somehow their stories would sometimes be similar to mine. Now those videos are making me think if I was sexually assaulted or if I’m overthinking it..

December 17, 2022

When I was about 10 years old me and my friends were playing games and one said “lets play a different game inside” and everyone agreed saying “that sounds fun” etc well we went upstairs and she wanted us to play “dirty” truth or dare so now I don’t play t or d and then she took us into her “game” room or something like that and she forced us to watch s3x videos and p0rn I feels unsafe around everyone now and I don’t go into anyones room anymore unless I trust them . Is this trauma idk? I need help bc I am still her “friend” not rlly but I don’t wanna be her friend anymore because of the stuff she put me through how do I tell her? Advice please .

December 17, 2022