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I’ve always felt like I’m gonna d!e at a young age. It started when I was little, there was a health problem that I was having where I was literally days away from dying but didn’t. Ever since then I’ve had several instances where I was really close to dying, benign very ill, or being seriously injured. Maybe I just have bad luck idk. But recently I’ve been very very depressed and wanting to off myself crossed my mind sometimes. I won’t do it dont worry. But the only reason I won’t do it is bc it’d make my little sisters sad and my parents would have to pay off my student loans with money they don’t currently have. It still crosses my mind often tho and makes me wonder if maybe that’s the reason I’ve always felt like I’m gonna d!e earlier than everyone else.

December 25, 2022

In 2021 I was SA by a older coworker, I did end up being forced to go to the police. My boss at the time wrote my statement for me. I lied to her. My boss was his ex mother in law and he held a lot of seniority over me. I was scared I was going to be fired since I was so new. So instead of telling her and the police the whole truth, I dumbed it down so it would only be misdemeanors instead of felonies. My truth is that he forced me to give him head, he punched me into submission, and he touched me skin on skin. I wish I could go back and tell the whole truth

December 25, 2022

Secret - when I was 11, my cousin (aged 17) sexually abused me whilst we were both staying at my grandparents house. He’s a successful athlete now, has a wife, two kids, and is a favourite of the family. I’ve never told anyone and probably never will but every now and then I can’t help but think about it and it makes my skin crawl. He probably doesn’t reflect on it at all and if he does, there’s no accountability or remorse.

December 24, 2022

Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to run off the road into a tree or jump off a cliff or od or something but it's not bc I'm scared of dying its bc I'm scared no one will care. I wish I was never born and that I wasn't the way I am. I wish I never cut my hair or flat ironed it for years. I wish I loved my family more.i wish my family was still here. I wish I didn't move away.and I wish I didn't have to worry about making it to my 18th birthday.

December 24, 2022

It’s just me and my mom in a 2 bedroom apartment. It was late at night one night and I heard the door opening and then voices talking. I was in my room watching my YouTube with the lights on. It was about 12am and I hear them go outside. (We have a balcony) They stayed out there until like 3-4am. (They we’re doing drugs) I hear them coming closer then they both go into her room. (Her room is right next to mine) They had sex while I was still awake. I heard everything they were doing. I cried so badly that night wishing they would stop. I cried out to my mother even though I knew she wouldn’t hear me. Just hoping she would maybe think about her daughter right next door in her room. They did it until it was about 8am and they talked a bit than he left. This happened a lot of time over a few months. I got sick of it so now I sleep in the same room with my mother to scared to move because I don’t want her bringing the guy over. Is it bad that I am doing this? (I am terrified of the guy because I have met him a few times, but I had trama with grown men before)

December 24, 2022

When I was 11, my friend and I walked to our local swim club in the middle of the night. I picked the lock on the Snack Bar door and we broke in. In all, we stole at least two gallons of Mountain Dew.

December 24, 2022

I hate my BFF’s girlfriend/friends. Ever since she (BFF) moved she’s been different and right after she moved she was the same old person I knew. It was like that until she met her girlfriend and other friends. Now she’s doing things she would NEVER do before she met them. Once at a point her girlfriend and friends manipulated her into not being my friend. After some conversations we are as close as ever again. I just don’t want her to get hurt but yet I’m to scared to tell her how I feel in fear she might now want to be my friend anymore(Which would likely never happen I’m just a overthinker). Yet I feel guilty not telling her because it’s now fair to me and not let my feelings out and it’s not fair to her because I’m not telling her. I don’t know what to do like I want to tell her but on the other hand how will she react.

December 24, 2022

i want to die, but i do not want to kms. my “best friend” has started to body shame me, and i am already insecure about my body. she goes against me in everything i do. she’s spread hurtful things about me. she’s made me feel like nothing. i can’t drop her, as her brother has cancer and she’s already going through enough. i feel like i’m never enough. i feel bad for feeling good. i’ve gotten really suicidal the past couple of days. i asked my friend for advice, but she doesn’t have any. i don’t want to kill myself as i don’t want my family to be upset. they’re the only thing keeping me alive. i’ve done so much to myself, and this “friend” doesn’t even know she’s the root of it all.

December 24, 2022

I began to view adult content out of curiosity at a young age, and for years it consumed my life. I hated the person who I had become and saw no way out. I began to see the world through the lens of my pain and guilt and felt that I would never truly be loved by another. I planned to end my life this last July, but didn’t. I feel like I have never truly been liked simply to be liked. Everyone has only ever used me for something. And from these issues I now see the world as a very cold dark place. I have become bitter and cold towards my life and family. I don’t see a way out.

December 23, 2022

February 14, 2019. That was the day that i was r@ped by my then gf and best friend. I started sh and having su!c!dal thoughts. I have almost k!lled myself 3 or 4 times and no one knows. I still feel disgusting every time i see her, or think about it, which happens all the time. Im in a better spot atm, a couple months clean of sh, but im getting bad again. The worst part is that ive started talking to a guy recently who doesnt deal with mental health issues as far as i know, wnd i really dont want to scare him off. I dont know how to open up, but i know ill have to eventually. He deserves to know what hes having to deal with. But then i overthink and go into anxiety attacks every time i try to work up the courage. I need help.

December 23, 2022