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I have a image that keeps me up at night it went away for a really long time but recently it’s come back and I’m getting worse and worse. I’m sitting in my grandmothers basement in the middle of the room crying on a little wooden chair it was a giant family thanksgiving my dads side bunch of people I’d never met kids and adults I remember I was being blamed for something I didn’t do I keep trying to figure out what happened but the memory is completely blocked and it haunts me it randomly happens throughout the day I just remember it and then I become a mess shut down and don’t know why.

December 26, 2022

About a year ago I was super sick, like really sick, I couldn’t move, couldn’t live my life and all while a teenager. All of my tests were coming back normal but I was not ok. They had no idea what was wrong with me. This is the secret: I would wish I had cancer, I would wish that I had something that people knew about or knew how to help. And it’s so horrible for me to admit. I also wanted to not wake up in the morning, I wanted to die in my sleep. I was almost jealous of kids with cancer because at least they had something that people and doctors knew about. And I hate myself for thinking that. I don’t want anyone to tell me how horrible I am because I know. I just needed to get this off my chest. I’m so sorry.

December 26, 2022

Idk how or when but at some point in time I wasn’t able to make out my feelings or personality. I think it might’ve been from be doing everything for my family and pretending to be fine happy and all when I was actually suicidal. Even to this day I have suicidal or self harming thoughts. If you were to ask me how I feel about stuff like emotionally and my mental health or ask me serious questions I would’ve be able to give an answer. It sucks bc I have no idea what emotional and mental state I am. I feel like I’m not even myself anymore bc I pretend to be happy yet I’m suicidal and can’t even cry. Yet I can’t get help bc my family leans on me and depends on me for everything. Sometimes I just wanna disappear.

December 26, 2022

I regret telling her i loved her i should have ever and maybe we would still be friends and it would be killing me inside completely now but it would have been better to be friends than have her ghosting me and ignoring me like all i wanted was her all i wanted and i cared for her and i made sure she knew how good she was and i really just wish i never told her and i can see what my life would have been like

December 26, 2022

My parents split up when I was around 4 years old. My dad decided to date this one girl who is now my step mom. I only have to see them every other day but when I’m there I have to do chores. Like every teenager. But for my “chores” I basically have to clean the whole house. Whenever I get home from my moms house it’s a mess. And they make me pick it up. Sometimes I’ll get home and my step mom will already be home. Hasn’t picked up anything, when it’s mostly her mess. Then if she finally decides to pick something up she complains that she picks up everything for everyone. It’s so draining then if I cry because I’m stressed out about it they will yell at me. I can’t even tell my actual mom about it because her and my step moms are basically best friends.

December 26, 2022

When I was 14 years old this boy asked me out at the time I didn’t really like him but I ended up saying yes because I didn’t wanna say no because I never really experienced having a boyfriend. Which was the biggest mistake ever because I ended up getting attached, one time he would beg me for nudes and I would say no or just avoid the question.He would keep on asking me and begging me for it so I finnaly gave in. I sent multiple nudes probably the most 10. Yeah I know I was dumb but I was so blind to see that he never really cared for me, one time he screenshoted it and I asked him why did he do that. To be honest I forgot what he said when I asked that but he promised to NEVER show it to anyone and he said he wasn’t like that. Of course I belived him but at the end I ended up getting exposed, I remember that day like it was yesterday and I never really understud what happend in that situation and how I got exposed. But weeks later he sent me a paragraph asking me how I was holding up. But last year I ended up forgiving him which was a bad thing because I always ended up getting hurt. Idk if he’s my first love or first attachment but did I end up saying my sister found out I got exposed? Yeah… but Anways I haven’t talked to him in almost a year and I still can’t get over this situation. I’ll be 16 in a couple of days and it feels like I’m empty. I still think the situation but idk what to do to make me stop. AND the bad thing about it is that the school I go to sometimes I see him and avoid eye contact. It just hurts sm I feel like I’ll never feel like a while again

December 25, 2022

I have always been my dad's favorite and had the best relationship with him, but from age 7-9 I was ***ed by him he also did my sister. Now my sister absolutely hates him same with my whole family but I still love him (not like that) but I still think he's out father, I think that he is just like mentally insane or something but he went to jail for two years and now is back in his birth country but am I the asshole for still liking my father even tho we are losing the house got like 45 different mental issues, now and I have had something personal taken away from me? Now I realize why I was his favorite bc while we would watch soccer bc that's all he did, he would do things. And in court he pretend that he could not speak English so he didn't have to speak Infront if the judge. He put us through so much for his needs and put my mom and is through hell and back, it's not easy pretending to be happy. Well it's been 3 years since it last happened!! Ok,I'm 12 today it has been the worst 3 years bc of him. Am I in the wrong for still not blaming him?

December 25, 2022

when I was 8 or 9, my friend sexually assaulted me. I said no but she said it was normal. I didn’t want her to, but it happened anyways. it wasn’t like she held me down, however I still remember that day. She is now telling people that I did it to her and I’m losing my friends. I don’t know what to do anymore. It sucks that this is how I’m living, and I told my friend and had a panic attack, they held me as I sobbed and thankfully they believed me. I just don’t want to be blamed for something that wasn’t my fault. I didn’t want it to happen. And I keep feeling like it’s my fault that I didn’t just try to leave because I thought it was ok. It’s not ok and I’m scared for life now.

December 25, 2022

I think about my friend romantically and I like to imagine scenarios about us being together in the past, but when I got with him, I didn’t like it. So basically, I like the idea of a relationship but i don’t wanna be in one. I still kinda like him but I also like another boy so I don’t know what to do lol. Pls help Idk what’s wrong with me or what’s going on so I thought someone could help me

December 25, 2022

I feel so stupid and helpless in the love category. I know this is lame and every other story on this is serious so I’m totally cool if you don’t think it’s good enough to post! Basically some background, I’ve dated this person in the past while I was a sophomore in high school (long distance and had to hide from my parents). After a year of dating, I got so bored and honestly pretended but they had a horrible mental health and always talked about how they weren’t worthy of me and they’d be depressed without me. So I felt like I couldn’t break up with them but I yearned for feeling single, like I was wasting my life with this one person. So I started “cheating” which was flirting with other people. Until I decided to break up with them out of the blue after months of pretending to enjoy their company and then ghost them after. I know it’s horrible of me to do it, I can’t say I regret it. Now, over a year later… I think I like this guy. But I’m not sure if I’m saying this just because I feel like I should or not. And I think there’s a chance he’s into me too. He constantly walks with me, we whisper to each other during class, plus some meaningful conversations. There’s more but maybe I’m overlooking this and being too hopeful? I get so flustered when we both lean down on our desks and just stare at one another for like a good amount of time. But he could just see me as a friend. I’m scared that if I do like him or if I date him, what if I get bored again? What if I hate not being single? What if I mess up? Maybe I’m just convincing myself I like him. It feels real but I feel like I’ll mess it up.

December 25, 2022