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When I was like 6 I was super scared of the dark like most 6 year olds. It was late at night and I needed to piss really bad. I had an air vent on the floor near my bed. So obviously my 6 year old mind thought it’d be a good idea to piss in the vent. My parents never found out but we’re constantly complaining about the piss smell that they couldn’t seem to locate. I’m taking this secret to my fucking grave.

December 31, 2022

My dad was young when he died. He died by od but not on his own. He wanted to party one last time before he went and took care of his kids. His friends drugged him and he never woke up. They were never charged with burger since he did drugs and alcohol that night. I hold so much anger and resent towards the people that did that. When I found out how he died, I started cutting and I tried to OD the other night. If I were to die I would want it to be my od just like he did. God I miss him every day.

December 31, 2022

I’m les My gf kisses her best friend like it’s a normal thing I told her I get hurt she says we are just best friends and we are so close I understand that they are friends before me but I have the right too I’m her gf it hurts what do i do

December 30, 2022

July 2020, my mom had gotten a call from her mom and said that her dad (my grandpa) was not going to make it by tonight according to the doctors. My mom and I took the 4 hour drive to see my my mom’s side of the family and meet them in the hospital. I remember the negative thoughts clouding my head on the drive there. It was around 9 pm when we had arrived. We met up with my grandma, aunts and uncles then went to see my grandpa. My grandpa had pneumonia and covid. His lungs were terribly damaged. I remember seeing him on the hospital bed and seeing how different he looked. His cheekbones were visible and his face was pale. Everyone was crying, but I wasn’t. I tried to cry but I couldn’t. My expression was blank and my mind was empty. I felt helpless. Then we were lead to the hospital chapel and stayed there for another hour or 2. I looked up at the cross with Jesus on it. I’m not a religious person but for the first time I had prayed to him, begging him to save my grandpa or at least take care of him once he had left this world. At 11 pm, my grandma had said her goodbyes to the love of her life, and decided that the plugs should be pulled out. One thing I feel so guilty about is not spending more time with my grandpa. And what’s worse, I saw my mom cry for hours and it pained me that my mom had lost a parent. It made me realize one day… I’ll be losing her too. But that’s how life is, how humans are. Life is truly precious.

December 30, 2022

So one day I was in band like usual but this specific day I was having a basketball game. I was wearing this long sliver dress shirt and most people thought it looked good on me. There’s this black person (don’t get me wrong I’m not racist, but she’s just a b word and you’ll see why in a moment) who I’m gonna call M as to not invade her privacy by saying her name. I was alone with M in the place where we store all of the instruments and as I was grabbing my trombone she told me, “Hey deadname when you walked in I thought ‘wow that girl’s so skinny, she should probably put on some weight.’” I told only my closet friends because I don’t think anyone else would believe me. Other than doing this, I don’t know what to do. Aside from this story, another reason she’s a turd is because she doesn’t know how to keep her own thoughts to herself. Now she’s started telling random people at random times that their mom’s hot. It annoys me. A lot.

December 30, 2022

Six years old. In a foster home. Lying in bed. My foster dad came in with his friends. It was only last year that I realized they had raped me. I barely remember it from the drugs. But the pain still haunts me. It hurts more knowing what could've happened in the parts I don't remember. Seven years old. Still in foster care- just a new home. I was the second oldest, and the oldest I was really close to. Well I found his body. He killed himself. He couldn't take the abuse anymore. Eight years old. New foster home. I made a new friend. He killed himself. I had something from him. A note, everything. My foster family found it and make me watch as they burned it. I'm now 17 years old. Life is pretty shitty. I'm adopted in a bad home still. CPS cannot do their job right. I have a horrible eating disorder from being starved and forced to eat, I've been in the hospital more times than I can remember. And I'm always told this is my fault. So here's my message to anyone struggling: It's okay to cry. It's okay to realize your fears. It isn't okay to blame yourself. You cannot blame yourself for anything. People say "God has everything happen for a reason." Do not believe that. Because there is no point in having you be in this pain. And people will say, "God gives His worst battles to His strongest soldiers." You don't have to be a soldier for you to get through this. If you've gone this far, you have hidden strength. You can do this.

December 30, 2022

When i was 6 i was playing hide n seek with my brother and uncle (who lived/still lives with us) we had a couch that was on a corner of the wall so there was a tiny area behind the couch where no one could see you, my brother was 10 and was the seeker so my uncle and i hid behind the couch. He had me sit on his lap and since i was 6 and was wearing a skirt (it had disney princesses on it, it was my favorite one) he decided to start touching me "down there" he said "do you like that?" I told him i didnt. I hated it i had always watched things in school that told me this was wrong but now that i was in this situation i had no idea what to do. He finnally stopped when he heard my brother coming, after that game i told my dad what had happend and he didnt belive me, he told me i should "not make stuff like that up." I tried to prove it to him but i had no way to show that it was true. This carried on for years untill i was 11 when he stopped because my dad finnally told him what i had been "making up" he then came back and told me if i ever told ANYONE about it "it will be the last thing you do" he still lives with me and im scared of him. He keeps making sexual jokes about me and im scared he will act on them again. What should i do?

December 30, 2022

There is this girl that has been my best friend for the past three years… And ever since I got to know her I’ve absolutely loved her. We have talked, at one point we both expressed the same feelings. But we both felt it wasn’t the right time. A lot was happening with covid we didn’t get to hang out and it was just hard. But fast forward to now. She always makes jokes about how she friendzones me and all that. Which honestly hurt. Because there isn’t a thing in the world I wouldn’t do for her. I could 100% see her being a great mother to my children. But she doesn’t feel the same. I’m sick and tired of living in this generation… I want long term not short little f boy relationships… god the things I’d do to have her in my arms… to have her say yes to marriage. To have our little kids running around the house calling her mom, mommy, whatever she’d like… I love her to death… and it’d be awkward if she saw this but oh well… If you do see this. I love you❤️

December 30, 2022

My secret is My father died this month so I never got to say hey dad how'd your day I love you sooooo much My family dislike my dad cause he cheated on my mom but he still loved her anyway my mom and dad went on a date and it went well until January 9 that's the day he pastes away and now everyone at school are starting roomers about me and my friend William and this girl keeps bringing up my dad and saying that he died bc her does not like me I was my dad favorite he had 3 children so I was the oldest and I cant stop thinking about how my 4yo brother is going to handle this he know but he does under stand everyone is falling one me and wants me to be just fine whit it my mom is in nursing school so I try not to stresse her so thats my secret hope you enjoy my life story

December 29, 2022

I have a lot of regrets. But I guess the biggest one I got is choosing to be alone. I’ve been hurt a lot, my trust thrown away from people who I thought would always be there for me. I never had a girlfriend or really any friends at all. I’m an outcast and it’s hard when most of the people you know in your high school put a label on you and that’s what your known for. I get I’m not the easiest to get along with and that I can be annoying and a sarcastic pr*ck but at least I try. But I’m just tired of seeing people be fake and tired of being used or manipulated just so someone else can be happy. So now whenever I feel like I’m getting close to someone I just start acting like an absolute douche. It’s not that I want to, it’s just that I’m scared. I hate being lonely and alone but if that’s what I gotta do to survive than screw, I may not like it but at least I’m still here.

December 29, 2022