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When I was 16 I found my soulmate. She was beautiful and my heart pumped everytime I looked at her eyes. We've had a relationship for almost 2 years doing whatever we wanted. Running away, sneaking into movie theaters, late night gas station snacks, etc. One day she told me that she was pregnant. I looked at her and told her that NOTHING would make me leave her. She had a toxic family, cocaine, meth, etc mother and drunk abusive father. Her father found out that she got pregnant and she called me saying that she was hitting her mom and her. I rushed over and beat the shit out of her father. We ran away that night. Couple months later and a friend of hers told me that she was on top of a building ledge and looked like she was about to jump off. I rushed over, up countless flights of stairs and when I got to the top I saw her. Crying with a defeated look in her eyes. She said that her dad killed her mother and ran away. By this point she was already 7 months pregnant. She made me promise her a few things and im still trying to keep them. Then she jumped and killed herself and the baby. I still haven't accepted her death to this day and I go to our favorite hangout spots every anniversary day. Its almost been 5 years...

July 19, 2023

Last summer, I made the mistake of my life. I felt in love with a men,that is 12 years older than me,but he is married and he have a little boy with his wife . I knew it from the beginning,but I never think that I will be in love with him.We just were having a nice time together and I was okay with it. Now I am suffering a lot , I love him and he loves me too , sometimes we cried together and we blame fate for everything, he told me that he would love to be with me forever and he would like that our fate to be different. I don’t want to get in the middle, I know that he is happy with his family But i know that he loves me too .I don’t know what to do , I feel like I am drowning every day . Every time he said to me that he is going to hang out with his family or that he is going home ,I don’t know how to describe what a feeling is . Is the first time that I am expressing this and it’s like I am better now…

July 19, 2023

"I want to be a drug dealer, but the cool kind. You know, the ones that wear a suit and carry a briefcase." He was 17 at the time and completely serious. He was expelled a month later for jumping another student.

August 7, 2023

This is a secret so I have a best friend I'm not gonna say her name but she has a sister and I'm pretty good friends with her sister but her sister has a boyfriend that ive liked for about a year and me and my friends sisters boyfriend have been flirting and sending pictures and today we hung out and did stuff no not s*x but I have a hole bunch of hickeys on me and we did other things and I feel bad but also i dont I don't wanna stop I know im a horrible person but I just had to get that off my chest

July 19, 2023

This is honestly a vent tbh. I honestly hate my current boyfriend.He’s A very touchy person but I am not.He always wants to hang out and when I can’t bc I’m currently on a mental health spike or my parents say no he gets pissed and throws a fit.He always tries to manipulate me and I know better than to believe it.He says that he loves me but Ik if she suddenly became available he’d break up with me in a heartbeat.They talk all the time and she’s supposed to be my best friend.We don’t even talk to each other anymore.I know that they like each other but I can’t do anything about it.Sometimes I feel like he only ever loved my body and not me.He talks about how he loves me and his “boyz” equally,but I’m his girlfriend.I should be more than a friend to him but these days it seems like that’s all I am.A meaningless friend.Worst part about this is that I actually loved him.And it wasn’t just a short crush,I loved him for about a year.And when something finally happens it ends up being toxic af

July 19, 2023

I’m not really happy. I pretend that the meds are working and I pretend that I love everything that I do but i’m not actually happy.. i have a loving family and a loving boyfriend but i also don’t wanna live. i’ve been to therapist after therapist and i just can’t get help. the only thing keeping me going right now is my boyfriend but i can’t tell him that because then he’ll get worried. everyone at school hates me for being gay and i can’t actually find friends anywhere. i’m too awkward and i just mess things up.

July 19, 2023

When I was in the 6th grade, my sister and little brother would go to our bus drivers house every other weekend because he was related to our dad and our parents trusted him. Sometimes my other sister went with them too. I was so glad when I got a weekend just to myself, no other people around.One day my sister's stopped going to his house and I was just thinking about myself, wishing they'd get out of the house, wondering why they stopped going. Months later, I had learned that our bus driver had SA'd them while my little brother was in the other room. I felt horrible .

July 19, 2023

im mentally ill. that’s so hard for me to admit because my parents are super religious and so am I (by choice) but my parents strongly believe in, “God will heal me.” when my parents found out i was suicidal, my dad told me it was “selfish” of me to feel that way because they give me everything i ever wanted in life and ever since that day i never tell my parents about my suicidal issues and my self-harming so when i finally find someone in my life who’s good for me, i always mess it up because i have relationship ptsd and i trauma dump since my parents have never given me that type of love and security to do so; im overwhelming for others and im trying really hard to trust God but i have no idea what im living for.

July 19, 2023

When I was 14 I saw my mother kill my brother and I don’t if I should report it because she’s the only family I have left but she committed a crime and she should be punished I was thinking of going the police tomorrow what do you think I’m really stuck in the middle by the way I’m 15 now my birthday was two days ago thank you for reading and don’t roam around the house at night you might see things you don’t wanna see

July 18, 2023

I was interested in this guy at the beginning of the school year. (I'm in 10th grade). I never planned on me actually catching feelings for him. I just thought he'd just be my crush at school who's nice to look at nothing more. Now I'm here thinking of him constantly and making scenerios with him in my head. I have made my move. I gave him this sticky note. Then I also did this school thing that's called "candy grams" and got him one. I even wrote my # on it. He never contacted me though. So I confronted him at school. Asking if he got it. He just said "oh that was you" and I was like "yeah" and the conversation ended there. I later dmed him on insta. I asked him questions about him then I finally started asking the important questions like why didn't he contact me (his number wasn't set up or something his messages doesn't work) and if he threw away the candy gram (he didn't he just lost it) and if he was in a relationship (he was single) and I tried to ask what his sexuality was in the most respectful way idk if I accomplished that though. (He's straight). Then I found out that he was my crush in 8th grade. I didn't recognize him because his hair is long now back then it was really short. He recently got a haircut though so it's not as long but it's still long. So I thought "this must be destiny". So I continued talking to him, the conversations were very one sided and weren't very much convos. So I asked him straight out "if you don't wanna talk to me just say that which he replied with "yea I don't". It's been months since then. New semester we have a class together. I recently found out that he isn't looking for a relationship just sx. But my question is why didn't he try to get to that point with me- he didn't even try if he's really like that you'd think he'd try having sx with me especially since my body is more grown in specific areas. Not that I would, I wouldn't I'm just wondering why he didn't even try to. Maybe it's cause I'm taller than him. Are boys intimidated by that?

July 18, 2023