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My biggest regret is not confessing to my best friend and choosing to stay friends.. he kissed me and I panicked and said, “you’re like a brother to me” he got up and left.. I instantly regretted what I said and went to follow him but he already drove away.. later that night he got into a accident.. he’s been in a coma since.. I cannot help but blame myself for not telling him how I truly feel.. I visit him as much as I can, but its hard due to covid restrictions.. I don’t think he wants to see me when he wakes up though.. so I’m forever going to hide my true feelings for him and regret my actions for the rest of my life…. I hope I’m making the right choice..

January 18, 2023

This was when I was 13, I had just gotten out the mental hospital for attempted suicide, just a few weeks had past and while I was gaming I had more or less a thought and image pop into my head that my upstairs neighbor was going to attempt, I didn't think too much about it as I get morbid thoughts often and given my circumstances it was normal. Well a week had passed and I come to find out he had hung himself. The exact way that I had seen the week before. He was my first crush, only a couple years older than me. I can't help but blame myself for his death but I couldn't go up and check on him because I had barely known him and his younger brother had some issues so I was uncomfortable around there. It's been 7 years now and I still feel the guilt and regret I did then maybe even more so now.

January 18, 2023

I am in love with my straight best friend. We do the obvious sus jokes and what not but what he will never know is that I secretly want him. He is engaged to a women and I feel the need to cut our friendship because I know we will never be together. I try and talk myself out of it every single day but I just feel jealousy and guilt because I know it’s not right.

January 17, 2023

I lost my great grandmother when I was like 6 I didn’t really see it coming but everyone else did. I remember when my mom texted my dad that she passed. I remember reading it and just running into my room. I cried every single night for at least two months. My mom would have to come and comfort me. I’m a teenager now and I still cry about it a lot except now I keep it to myself. I don’t want to tell anyone when I cry because I just like don’t showing it whenever I’m sad. Because I’m like the happy person in the family that’s like always in a good mood. I know I should tell my parents how I feel but I just don’t know how to start that conversation. And they ask me if I’m ok and I just say yeah and put a smile on my face. I just don’t know what to do.

January 17, 2023

I'm stuck inside of a house, with my homophobic grandparents i was thrown on the floor before we moved to ohio, im mentally not ok and i have to act like i am, i am not allowed to be Chanel when that is who i am, i have stomach ulcers from all of the worry, they are trying to make me something im not I AM CHANEL they are trying to take who i am away from me, i have always been picked on for being who i am, and who i am will never change (p.s. my mom is with me too and i get to go to my grandmothers some weekends for a break however this is a kind grandma)

January 17, 2023

I'm never really happy or anything but I have this one friend who makes me feel better when I talk to them but they don't really like me that much so they rarely wanna talk to me and usually just ignore me most of the time so I don't feel happy often. I kinda wanna tell them about this but it would probably make them feel uncomfortable. ik this isn't very interesting or anything but I guess it's how I feel.

January 16, 2023

im a compulsive liar. I dont know how else to say it. I don't enjoy lying i hate attention. I just do it. Its gotten so bad sometimes i believe the lies i tell myself. Im so scared to tell a docter about it because theres this kid at my school whos dad is my docter and even though his dad isnt supposed to he tells his son but theres no proof. He knows i go to therapy for my anxiety and paranoia because of his dad and he told everyone. Im so scared hed tell my boyfriend if i told my docter i think im a compulsive liar because my boyfriend would probably break up with me and hes the only person i havent even told a white lie to. I don't wanna lose my boyfriend but i dont wanna continue like this. What should i do?

January 16, 2023

I hate my whole family, that’s not really the secret though. They all know I hate them, I come from a big family and all they ever do is talk shit, brag, and argue. My aunts gossip the most. The secret is that I day dream and think on the daily about killing them all. Sometimes I like to make little plans in my head on how I would kill them. At first I tried to block these thoughts outta my head. Ofc I can never bring my self to really do it, but I do always wonder what would happen if they all knew I had these thoughts.

January 16, 2023

I struggle with becoming obsessed with people. All I will do it talk about them, think about them, I am unable to be happy, or sad, or any emotion at all unless I am in that persons presence. I’ve been recently obsessed with my coach, and it’s not like weird obsessed. I don’t stalk him or anything. I just feel really empty when I’m not around him. But things are happening where I am not going to be able to be around him as much by the end of March. And it’s killing me. It’s killing me inside because I’m the one that’s being weird about it and I’m the one that never wants him to change. I want to see him every day so I can feel something. I notice everything about him. When he changes clothes, when he leaves halfway through practice. The shoes he is wearing. I have even copied some of his mannerisms. With things changing and my mental health taking a very steep downturn these past couple months I don’t know what to do because he is my stability. Ik it’s unhealthy. But it’s the truth and I want to not depend on him but the way I do that is either cutting off contact pretty much completely. Or finding someone else to obsess over.

January 16, 2023

When I was younger I was touched by a family member and I have never told anyone (friend or family) about this and I’m 23 years old now. I don’t have the guts to tell anyone about this and it’s one of the main reasons why I don’t like sexual relationships is because of me being touched at a young age. And I’ve always told myself I would take that to the grave because I’ve been so afraid of speaking up about what happened to me in the past.

January 15, 2023