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My family is fucking crazy, scary, and full of criminals. I come from a not very known country in Africa with a population of 3 million. My family is kind of famous there because of my grandpa. He owns multiple apartments, a cement business there, and builds malls there etc. He was married to my grandma and they had 7 kids, three of them are female. Long story short my uncle raped a girl who he had a whole other family with which we never knew about. My aunty always has someone for everything. How do I know? One time some tenants where complaining that there was a leak or something. She called someone and told them “go quiet them. They’re being a headache”. I never heard from them again.My mom asked me if I wanted to be in an arranged marriage and laid one a bunch of guys for me. Most of them married, when I asked her about it she said “ don’t worry I’ll get rid of they’re wives as long as you’re happy”. My other uncle somehow got married for a second time and divorced in 2 weeks .My cousin stabbed a taxi driver and got away with it. They’re always trying to sneak in stacks of $100 when we’re coming back and they usually make us hide it. And my grandpa. The most mysterious and disturbing of them. Anytime he gets into a police station everyone bows to him. He’s usually the cause of traffic because all the cars stop to let him pass. His friends some high officials from Morocco out neighbouring country. And somehow sent his dumbass son to Cambridge.Trust me they’re is still so much more, but is there really something wrong with them?

January 27, 2023

I’ve never told anyone about this before, because I’ve always been so scared they will treat me differently and no one will understand. I feel depressed and tired all the time. Nothing is fun anymore, and everyday feels the same. I think about what it would be like, you know, to just end it, but I would never do that. I’m at the point where I don’t want to live like this anymore, but I also don’t want it to end. I’m just super confused and don’t know how much longer I can keep living in this never ending cycle.

January 27, 2023

I just need to rant and hope someone hears this. I was abused like crazy. I raised a baby, which was my sister. I was homeless at some point and grew up in poverty. I’m in foster care with my sister. I don’t want to live bro. But I’m also extremely strong and proud of myself because people like me end up dropping out or becoming terrible people. I want to be a doctor very badly. I’m working a lot so I can buy things for my sister and I. Girls these days say their grandma died and get 15 bodies in a week. I’m extremely proud I keep myself together with my body and education and drug wise. Mentally tho I feel like I’m alone and I won’t get anywhere. I have stress tics, hair loss, and grey hairs. I just want to be mentally ok one day that’s all I ask.

January 27, 2023

Tw: abuse and a$ When I was 14 I was taken out of my dad's care due to abuse. My mom was going through cancer treatment the same time and the medication made her forget almost everythinf that happened. Right after the police talked to her she told me, "I seriously doubt your dad did any of that, you probably took it the wrong way." I can never forget her for never believing me, even now that I'm about to turn 18 I still can't forget what he did. Im terrified to sleep at night because I feel like I'll wake up to his hands on my body again. I've been my mom's care giver since, she went through cancer recently. But I cant help bur feel resentment and wish I could just leave everything behind. I love her as a mom, but not a person. Im biracial and she is constantly degrading my asian half. I hate hearing racist comments and then how she feels like I should reconnect with my father. Theres more but I dont want to run out of room so yeah

January 27, 2023

When I was about 5 or 6 I went into the kitchen and grabbed a knife when I was staying at my grandmas house, I held it to my stomach (I was going through a rough time at that age no one knows this except my partner but I believe they disregarded it which is okay) I was put through a lot and almost didn’t know how to handle it..i stopped myself due to me wanting to know what else there was for me. When I was 10 some one close to me passed away.. I don’t know how to show emotions let alone I just keep everything in since their death because I feel like no one would understand my thoughts and situations without judgement, I’ve tried therapy (I was made fun of from my parent for doing so) but I still went for the sake of it, still didn’t work too well..(I still hold in so much to this day that little by little I feel heavy slowly hurting myself holding it in) but I try to smile and help friends, family and my partner to be happy there is so much I want to rant about or just cry and scream just about everything but it’s the fear of putting that wall down I guess.. if your anything like me in this type of situation.. one word of advice.. let it go and let it out before it’s too late, get that BS off your chest and do things without regret you only live once don’t take anything for granted.

January 27, 2023

When I was little I had the dog named domie. He was everything to me. He would sleep with me, and he was my best friend. Anytime I felt like I wanted to hurt myself he was always there for me. And when he would lay on my bed I would tug on his tail or leg. I never meant to hurt him but I did. Then he started to limp and limp and it got so bad we had to put him down. And I regret ever doing that to him and blame his death on me.

January 27, 2023

When I was around the age of 4 or 3 my parents would always fight. I would always run to my siblings room when they weren't there to cry. Few years later They divorced, but a whole lot of stuff happened before that. I was being a huge jerk to my dad, and my mom told me i was having a sleepover with my friends that night. Next day, my mom kicked him out. I never got to apologize and say goodbye. So I'm stuck feeling like I wasn't the perfect daughter. :)

January 27, 2023

Hi! I had really low self esteem and I’m really suicidal. It’s been going on for years and it’s getting worse and worse and worse. Some of my friends have bad mental health but have people who know and when they speak about it it’s so hard not to cry because it just upsets me so much. I have been so close to trying to commit suicide so many times. What makes it worse is I have really bad anxiety and might have OCD (that’s a might, I’m showing behavior but till I’m diagnosed with it I am not saying I do). I’ve had 4 mental breakdowns in school in front of someone this year and I just blamed it on my head hurting or a bit of drama with some friend. Well the 4th time, they sent me to the school social worker and I had to tell her something so I just told her about my checking. She told me I should tell my parents and when I reacted and said no she kept asking why and than she would drop it and ask again. I love my parents and I’m genuinely so lucky to have them but it’s always been kind hard for me to trust them. My dad works a lot and is reserved, he also Is really gullible in a way? Like he’s not gullible at all other than how he repeats everything his step mom says. And a lot of the stuff is super controversial. I told him the other day about my checking and he was like well I’m not sure what should we do about it but he was also like it’s probably just a habit and you just gotta learn to stop and tell your self not to check and it really made me feel invalidated. My mom takes small things to another extent and will have mental breakdowns easily, she also gossips about other people, will laugh in my face when I try to talk to her about serious things, and backstabs a lot. She does so much other stuff too and it’s made it really hard to trust both of them. Today I was with a assistant teacher and I told him what I just said about my mom and now with I feel like he’s gonna think I’m being dramatic or priveledged because I’m so lucky to have her and so many people have it so much worse. I keep beating myself up for it. What do I do? Am I being dramatic?

January 27, 2023

my family completely hates each other. im 15 years old and this is my story. my mom dod drugs with me for the first 10 years of my life until i finally got the courage to tell my dad i wanted to live with him. (they were divorced btw) I was left in apartment parking lots and i found a dead guy in my moms bed when i was 4. i was traumatized. i saw my dad every other weekend, after toms of court trials. my grandparents hate my dad and my stepmom. my step moms the most amazing women in the world. i moved in with my dad when i was 11. and he got full custody of me. i was still hurting because i know i was disappointing that side of the family. i feel like my voice is unheard. and sometimes it makes me not want to be here anymore. my moms been in jail countless times. my stepmom took me under her wing as her own and loved me. my dad ended up leaving my stepmom for another women. he’s still gone. he left her. he left me. only time he messages or sees me is when he’s mad at me or needs something. i’ve never been close to a man. i watched him hit her countless times. and i had to get in between them and it really scared me. he told me if he was to ever kill himself i should feel guilty because i never made an.l effort to see him.my step mom is the most important person in my life. im fixing to go through a really bad time right now. 5 years of my dad having custody of me,even (though i live with my step mom) ny grandparents are filing a court case again against my dad. there filing for full custody of me and that my dad abandoned me. my dad told me he’s gonna rip me out of my step moms life and im scared. i don’t want to lose her. im emotionally hurt this. it’s never gonna stop until im 18. no one listens to my voice especially the judge. i wonder what they would do if i wasn’t here anymore. would it stop the fighting? is anything going to change? i can’t do this anymore. it’s mentally draining every good part of me.

January 27, 2023

i grew up being taught that every swear word was a bad word so i never swore or said any of them but i knew what they were from hearing them from others. in 10th grade i was in a rlly "rebellious" mood during the homecoming dance lmfao so i was screaming lyrics and swearing for the first time... except i didn't know that the n word had such a ugly history and thought it was just any other swear word (public education failed me i guess) so sicko mode blasted and i screamed the n word and every head turned my way. it was so embarrassing. my friend had to pull me aside and explain. i apologized to everyone and people knew me so they knew i would never purposely do that but oh my god it took a while to recover.

January 26, 2023