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I'm so scared to tell anyone how much pain I'm constantly in. I've wanted for it all to just be over with for so long but I can't ever bring myself to hurt my family like that. I own a home, have a well paying job, and now a family that loves me. On the outside I'm an extrovert and a very respected employee at work so I'm ashamed of how I feel. I wish I had it in me to ask for help because everyday is getting harder to get out of bed. I wish it would all just go away and I could have peace.

February 1, 2023

Im gender fluid but my family just ignores it because they don’t want to deal with it. I prefer the name Rowan and they/they pronouns. my family think it’s for attention and that i wanted to stay in the phych ward longer than i already was. It’s hard i don’t know what to do. I so alone. My mental health is slipping again. I’m terrified to bring it up because my family is homophobic and will probably kick me out if i try to get them to acknowledge it.

February 1, 2023

When I was 11 me and my 4 siblings would say bye to our mom before my older sibling drove us to school. On one particular day me and my younger brother raced for front seat. I beat him and said “ha loser” and say in the front. When we dropped him and my two younger siblings off at their school I didn’t say “bye love you” like usual. I said nothing. I went to school. When I finally went home I found that my mom had killed herself and my three younger siblings. The last thing I said to my littler brother was that he was a loser. I didn’t even get to say goodbye

January 31, 2023

So basically this was a super long time ago and I don’t rly remember how old I was but my cousin (who is a girl, and I’m a girl too) spent the night at my grandparents house and she turned to me while I was trying to sleep and kept nudging me to wake up and then she took out her phone and started showing me videos of people kissing I was kinda interested bc it’s not really anything I had ever had exposure to anyways she asked me to try it w her and we ended up kissing a lot and basically every time I saw her she’d pull me aside to kiss me and touch me and I didn’t like it and then she tried to force me to lick her down there and I kept saying no she gave up eventually but it sparked something and led me down looking up more people kissing and then eventually more than that now I have a boyfriend and I’m worried because I’m super hyper sexual with him and I just want to do it with him every time I’m with him and I don’t know why I wish I could just hang out with him and enjoy his company but I just find myself thinking about doing it way too often and I know it’s too often. This also started when I was like 7 or 8 I think.

January 31, 2023

When I was 12 my mom and dad got into a really bad argument, me being the kid I was I would sit and wait by my door just in case I had to help out. It got quiet for a good 5 minutes before I walked downstairs. My dad told me he was going to bring me into town and as we were going into town he told me he wasn’t going to be around for a while. Later that night I found out he tried to shoot himself..

January 31, 2023

A girl (8th Grade) told me she wanted to have kids (2-3) by the time she was 18 so she could have the energy to keep up with them and then be a stripper to support them.

January 31, 2023

Sometimes I get feelings of a deep seeded hatred whether it be for me or others and the thing is when I get them I hyper-fixate on someone’s existence so bad that I want them gone (dea.d). I rarely get these feelings now like so rare but when I do — it’s so bad that it scares me on how much I can hate someone just out of nowhere.

January 31, 2023

well my mom was feeling a little bit sick and we were supposed to go to my sister’s husband bday. however before that my mom did fast antigen test and while she wasnt near me i changed tests. that was the old one and it was negative. so we went to bday. when we came home the one i changed was positive i freaked out even though that both antigen tests came back negative. now the worst thing is that my sister’s family have covid. i didnt tell my mom that i changed tests.

January 31, 2023

Last summer i got an ED. I lost so much weight and everything but in October i started to eat like a normal person again. I didnt want to recover, I was comfortable with my illness it just happend. Ever since then i started to put on weight again and now i weigh the same as before my ED. It is so hard. I dont know what to do. I hate how i look and i cant look at myself in the mirror but at the same time i cant stop eating. Becasue of this i started self harming again. It is really draining but i cant tell anyone because they would be just mad at me. I miss my sick body, being tired all the time, my heart beating so fast after going up the stairs. On top of that everyone around me is telling me that i'm looking so much better and i hate this. I cant take it for much longer and i need advice on how to stop feeling so bad all the time <3

January 31, 2023

I hate my life. And I mean this in the most literal way possible I have 1 or 2 real friends, I’m poor, my parents mentally abuse me every single day. My father is the one who slightly cares about me but just barely. I wish my mother would kill herself. My brother have severe OCD causing him to hate me. My other brother is a pedophile. The people at school threaten to kill me and jump me, they also tell me to kill myself. That’s why I left the school. My sister is sometimes an asshole but I know she cares about me. My teacher, Miss Lobato was the only thing keeping me in the school I was in. I love her so dearly and would die for her. I love my animals and I feel most at peace sitting alone in nature. Just standing outside heals me. I’m planning a suicide for my birthday March 31st. I’m done with life and hopefully my parents fix themselves for my siblings after I’m gone. I love you Lee(my sister) I love you Miss Lobato, you deserve the world and more.

January 31, 2023