There was a time a few months back where I participated in a soccer camp called APT with a bunch of my friends and we had a blast. There was dodgeball and kickball and scrimmages against friends it was so amazing. But i’ve always felt a closer bond with one of my friends. Her name Cayden, and she was amazing. She was kind, beautiful and super skilled at soccer. We had feelings for each other for the first week or so, and it just…that. Until the second week, things changed. I felt a stabbing pain of unknown agony that tortured me every now and so when I saw Cayden. I didn’t understand what it meant, so I avoided her, pushed her away in the cruelest ways possible. We didn’t talk to each other for five months, while I always sat in my bed and thought to myself, “Jeez, I really am idiot.” Five months later, and we finally started to become friends again, but I always felt like a hurt her so badly and the path I took was the worst path. I want to make up for my mistakes, but It’s impossible to talk to her anymore. I just don’t know how. And Cayden, if you see this, im sorry.
