I hope that later in life I can learn how to take care of others and myself. I hope I find hapiness and I am content with my life, I hope I take my time to breathe and experience things in the moment. Ive been keeping to myself a lot lately but I sadly like someone who has a gf. Ive started cutting and I thought it wasnt gonna be that big of a deal at first but now Ive realized its become a big part of me. My biggest regret is giving myself such high standars on what I have to be and what I meed to do. I regret making myself think that if I dont do certain things or get good grades everyone will be disappointed in me. I regret putting so much pressure on myself since I was younger, I wish I had given myself some slack cause now it feels like im falling behind and theres nothing I can do about it. Lately ive been feeling lonely, the lonliest ive ever felt in my life and its really starting to hit me. I need to know im not lonely, Im not worthless if i dont meet certain standards, and that everythings gonna be okay. I need comforting rn..please

I have many regrets in life, but this one is the cherry on top. As I've said in the previous forms I've submitted I come from a broken and disheveled household. Since my upbringing I've become deeply depressed. As I get older my will to live weakens, and the only reason I've made it this far in life is because I have a little brother seven years younger than me. His name is Mark and he's the most precious thing in this world. I love him to death and I would protect him with my life. At first I thought "As long as he lives and breathes so will I" I was confident in that decision and yet here I am hoping the next morning I don't wake up. Every regret in my life catches up to me. At times I'm afraid I'll really do it. Though because I'm afraid at that thought I have hope I'll gain the courage to live on and see him grow into an outstanding gentleman (or lady the choice is all his). Now for the main part of this message I want to say that my biggest regret is letting my surroundings define who I am, because now I'm a mess. To everyone who reads this I want to say to you to not let your mistakes or the people around you mold you into a terrible person. You are not your mother, father, uncle, aunt, cousin, etc. You can be better than them and I truly believe that. I fear it is a bit to late for me now but it's not for you. Lastly. As I write this my fingers tremble as I'm afraid to submit this but I know there's someone out there who's exactly like me. I hope my message gives strength to those who need it. Thank you for reading. English is not my first language and I need more work on my punctuation but If you post this I would love tips on how I can improve and how you received my message. Thank you again.

• July 31, 2023