1. I regret cheating on my ex. It was rough being together cuz we were long-distance, but he loved me unconditionally and would’ve done anything for me, and i knew that. He even bought me a hoodie for christmas. but we got into one petty argument and I left him for someone else that i knew wasn’t good for me. i’ll never forgive myself for it and ik i’ll get a lot of hate in the comments from talking about this one but i don’t even care because i deserve the hate. i was immature, selfish, and a bad girlfriend all around. he deserved so much better than me and he still does. i love him with all my heart and i wish i had been a better gf to him. i hope he’s happy now with someone else because he deserves someone better than i am that’ll appreciate all the love i was too cowardly to accept. 2. i regret pushing away my best friend of 4 years . he was always there for me whenever i needed him, and we shared so many good memories. but i always ignored his needs. i never asked him how he was or how he was feeling and i always thought about myself. i never meant to be a bad friend to him. my mental health was shitty especially when the beginning of quarantine started, and i began using him as an emotional tampon, and ig he got tired of me and left me. i don’t blame him. i should’ve found better ways to cope instead of dumping all my problems onto the only friend i had, the only friend that was willing to stay. i didn’t deserve him either. i regret not taking the time to tell him how much i appreciated him. so yeah ig i suck and i hate myself cuz all i do is hurt ppl and im an L gf L friend L daughter L person and i should just ☠️ so no one has to deal with me ok byeeeee

Meeting her. She was so nice, mature, and was scarily keen and socially intelligent. She knew I liked her. She said she liked me too, but couldnt get into a relationship yet; and that was fine. I was an idiot. She kept leading me on and did things friends... arent supposed to do. She then broke it down to me her friends dont approve of us together and gave her a choice; them, or her. It broke me down when she chose them, although she secretly had me on the side and we kept being together for awhile. Things happened between us though. I kept asking her if she even liked me still and she kept lying and lying, saying "I do like you." It wore me down. Events happened between us because I couldnt tell if she was being nice or if she liked me. She told me she liked me, over and over. She broke me down. Over and over and over, and fixed me over and over and over. She made irreplacable memories and overtime my like turned into love, and every time she fixed me, I started to love her more and more, disregarding myself and making her my everything. We were so close. I would do anything to make her happy. Then she started being distant. I was getting emotional since she suddenly started being distant and making excuses not to see me anymore, and it was like this for a month or so. I couldnt take it and got emotional. She gave me the truth. It was all a lie. She never cared about me, she never acknowledged me as a person, she only knew my name and that was about it. She didnt care about me at all. She never liked me at all. She was just leading me on and playing with me. She threw me away because I was only there for her to cope with the drama she had in her life. Things ended there. I tried to apologize. I got suicidal and really depressed about the whole situation. I wasnt good enough for her to even care about me. I started cutting myself. I got more and more sucidial and I started confiding in people I trusted. They told her everything and betrayed me. They mocked me. They laughed at me saying Ill never be able to talk to her again and that I was manipulative and tried to take her away from them. I had a restraining order from her. The whole school knows about our situation. I dont feel safe at school with all the eyes on me because of her. I just want to kill myself. I dont even think I want to live. I loved her and she didnt care about me at all. They betrayed me and everyone knows. I dont know what to do other then commiting suicide. My life is ruined. I love her so, so, so, so much. I hope shes happy when I kill myself, because I cant handle a life without her.

• July 1, 2023