My dad’s side were never happy since the day that I was born. They mentally abused me since I was 4 ( that when I roughly remember). They all played victims every time they abused me, making my dad to abandon me too. I was never loved and appreciated by them. I watched them trying to separate my family, shaming my mom for not being able to have more kids than 2. Tried to isolate my brother from me and made suicidal. Years passed but not their toxicity…. And now I hate to admit that I became the outcomes of my childhood traumas with a failed suicidal attempts. To this day I couldn’t forgive myself for killing my inner child and for living behind the shadows. I have depression and social anxiety but I’m trying to survive for my mom, brother and a few friends who never left me alone. I hope I make it one day……….