When i was 11 i took my moms phone and search stuff little did i know it would have an impact on my life i started liking smaller boys than me thinking only sex stuff in my head like sleeping with them my concentration in class decreased and i started failing class every time is thinking about little boys age of 9 to 14 i needed help but my parents could see it because all they were thinking is there work and my grades leaving me in the dark i remember coming from school when i was 15 i found my dad in the couch with report card he scolded me telling me am a shame ,worthless and i will never make it in this world that i will be his worker in his shop i remember i went to depression for 7 weeks cried every single night didn't move outside for 7 wks just staying in my bed feeling sad playing with my body and thinking how my life could be better if I died but i didn't have the courage i always regret that day i took the phone and search that thing coz it turned my life around no girlfriend,bad grade,idk my sexulity and i won't accept it if am gay coz of my culture wasted my teen yrs watching porn and jerking off ...... struggling with alot of things like depression, anxiety,porn addict,masterbating addict and am 17yrs....been struggling with those for 6 yrs going 7 this December but know i call for help pls coz my parents wont help and am loosing hope....but one thing am proud of i never had sex with those boys but still struggling to control myself...if a parent read this plz talk to your boys and don't let them be in the dark like me

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023