I'm all for being an advocate for love and happy endings, but why- Why do people feel the need to lie IN a relationship? What good do you fucking see lying to a person for a good year of your relationship just to pick up and say "Oh, I'm sorry, I really do miss you. I'm just so busy" Fuck you. I don't trust good intentions thanks to you, prick. I regret hoping for you to see me worth it enough for your attention. I would like to say fuck you and your newest girlfriend, but thats a bit harsh. I hope she has a wonderful life, and that you forever feel what I did. The gut wrenching hurt of feeling like you can't fit into her life.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023