Growing up as the first born and only girl of my family, I was really loved by my parents and mostly my dad. I so much trusted him and felt awkward when other kids said their parents had arguments coz I never saw them do it, till I was grown and had a bf as @ then and found out the lady introduced to me by my dad as a family friend was actually his mistress till date, my mum has been loyal to my best knowledge and same day I found out my bf that I trusted cheated on me multiple times and since then my trust has been broken to no limit. I have never told anyone. Am married now and was again I am broken with same scenarios. I feel so much hatred, anger and so many others. I just feel like no one is loyal. I have experienced so much betrayal at a young age and each day I see myself dying slowly.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023