I constantly think of scenarios in head to prepare for the worst. See the thing is I have been abused and was neglected my whole childhood and thinking about it hurts so I create the fake scenarios to better prepare myself for any future events like these

Due to family problems, at the age of 9 I had started living with my grandfather. I didn't think it would be too bad, since I had always gone to his house to hangout and stay the night, and never remembered anything bad happening when i was with him at the time. But as i continued to live with him, he started touching me inappropriately. He would commonly touch and slap my behind, make comments on my body, and come into the bathroom while I was taking a bath and simply stare at me. At first, as a child, i didnt understand these things were wrong. But as i got older, i started getting upset about it, but he wouldn't stop. He was also quite physically and verbally abusive, and had some pretty bad anger issues. Not only that, only recently i remembered he had done some other very bad things to me when I was extremely young. Maybe around the age of 5-7, which i wont go into. When i was 12, i got out of the situation and moved in with my father. But it wasn't till i was 15 that i realized the things he did to me was not okay. Since then, he has passed away. But i still want to talk about it, for my own mental health. I have tried to tell my family about it, but none of them believe me. Im not sure what to do, since till this day i am still affected by the stuff he would do and say to me.

• June 13, 2023