When I was about 5/6 years old(can't remember) I was raped by our house boy. The worst part is it went for a whole month. I never had a good relationship with my parents at all and I couldn't tell them, though I wanted to but felt helpless. However my mother knew something until one day she caught us. I was blamed for the action and even forced to sleep outside in the cold. I was still young and I didn't know what that was. I ended up sick and lonely crying at night but my parents didn't care or take me to hospital. Later they resolved the issue with the guy and he Even came back to our home to say goodbye as he was no longer working for us. I felt disgusted and betrayed. Being the only girl in my home, the relationship with my family then got destroyed. As I grew older I was left out, beaten, denied freedom to do even what teenagers do. Now am 21 but still feel like 13. Am trying to grow as an adult yet there's childhood in me still growing. I have had a lot of traumas in my life, been depressed and even tried killing myself but I couldn't do it. Unfortunately I got sick some few years back of heart condition. I feel caged. I have no friends, I don't party I just stay indoors loney. I always crave for love and affection because I was never loved and accepted as my father hates me because he wanted boys and I was born a girl and am living differently the way he wanted me to. I have been hurt and betrayed because of my big warm heart as I treat people and trust them they way I wanted to be treated but I never got a chance.I sometimes create imaginary friends in the house that I talk to, cry and Even tell them how I feel coz I got no one. I just feel tired..