Question to those who read this: What do I do? My mental health has gotten so low as I have 3 attempts on my life but every time I can’t because I won’t leave my best friend alone. I’ve tried asking for help from my parents but they don’t believe me. They always say “your fine” or “Your alway so happy what makes you feel this way”. My mom and I don’t get along at all. It’s quite clear that I’m not the kid they wanted. They love my younger sister so much more and I’m just the kid in the background who can do house hold work. But even with this I l ok be my little sister. She’s the best thing there is. I’m alone. I don’t know what to do anymore

when i was younger (like 7-12) my dad used to hit my sisters and my mom divorced him. he rarely did it to me but he would emotionally abuse me a lot. like being manipulative and narcissistic. i’ve been to a therapist ordered by the court about it but no one ever takes me seriously because “he never really hit me” it still impacts me a lot and i try not to think about it but when i do it really messes me up. recently my moms boyfriend had asked us to move in with him and my mom said yes. my dad used to move around a lot and so the town that we’re moving to he has lived in. it’s giving me severe ptsd and anxiety and i can’t control it but my mom is telling me to get over it because hes different. well she’s had boyfriends before and they weren’t different. i can’t help feeling guilty like i’m stopping them from being happy but i’m very unsure about it. her boyfriend hasn’t given me a reason to doubt him and he’s really good to me and my younger siblings but i still worth it won’t work out.

• August 4, 2023