This is honestly a vent tbh. I honestly hate my current boyfriend.He’s A very touchy person but I am not.He always wants to hang out and when I can’t bc I’m currently on a mental health spike or my parents say no he gets pissed and throws a fit.He always tries to manipulate me and I know better than to believe it.He says that he loves me but Ik if she suddenly became available he’d break up with me in a heartbeat.They talk all the time and she’s supposed to be my best friend.We don’t even talk to each other anymore.I know that they like each other but I can’t do anything about it.Sometimes I feel like he only ever loved my body and not me.He talks about how he loves me and his “boyz” equally,but I’m his girlfriend.I should be more than a friend to him but these days it seems like that’s all I am.A meaningless friend.Worst part about this is that I actually loved him.And it wasn’t just a short crush,I loved him for about a year.And when something finally happens it ends up being toxic af

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023