I was molested at a young age by my cousin. Age maybe 5 (maybe younger) until I was 7. I wouldn't want to go but my mom would take me anyways. And somehow my cousin would always get me alone. I only remember 2 times. Fast forward to when I was 13. I spent the night with my grandmother there because me and my grandmother were close and I helped take care of her. I seen my cousin and I asked him about it. He told me he had touched me more then 2 times. He said it was maybe 6 or 7 times he did it and that if I ever wanted to have sęx I should do it with him. I was disgusted. The fact that he has no idea what mental state that it put me in through all these years and he never apologized. Even till this day. I seen him a few weeks ago at his moms funeral. I just keep the space. He has daughters now. I wonder if he feels sorry. I told my mom when I was 14. She told me I wouldn't have to see him again if I didn't want to. But she passed when I was 19. My life has been hard. I'm 25 now. I still get flashbacks of him holding me down.