I’m still in love with my ex, she has since moved on but I can’t let her go. I’ve deleted pictures and anything she got me but everything I do there’s something that reminds me of her. I’m 21 and I can’t see myself with anyone but her. Before her I was just a sad shell of a person that went through the motions of life and was never happy and growing up poor didn’t help that either. But not having her with me now living life with a fake smile I don’t think anyone truly knows how sad I really am. I’m okay during the day and I still think of her now and then but when I lay down in bed she is all I think about.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023