I’m 15 now but this happened when I was about 11. My childhood cat had always been there for me when I needed her most. Note that she suffered from a incurable disease and I knew she was going to die at some point but me being innocent kid I was didn’t expect for it to be that night. I was on call with my friends and I had told them that she wasn’t looking well but I just thought it was because she hadn’t taken her medicine that night. So me being stupid started joking about how she was dying and how I needed to leave the call. Well I never left the call and about 10 minutes later my father had come in and told me she had passed away on the floor in the kitchen… I think of that night every day if I had just listened to my parents and helped her pass with the love of her owner she wouldn’t have died without me. I didn’t get to say goodbye or even I love you before we buried her. I will always blame myself for being ignorant and not thinking of my pet.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023