I never think I am enough. Every relationship I am in I either get raped or I get cheated on. I'm so close to just shutting off from the world and/or leaving it. But there's this guy at my work, he's really nice! My best friend embarrassed me in front of him and it was no big deal until she poured ice water on him. He looked at me like it was my fault. The last words he told me were "go k1ll yourself". Apparently he quit the next day, and ever since he's been 'coincidentally' everywhere I go. The laundry mat, grocery store, and even at my doctors office..I don't know what to do..

I’m a male. Through the ages 6 through roughly 10. I used to (and still do) spend all my time at my grandmas house. My grandmas sisters grandson lived pretty close to my grandma so i would ask if he could come over often. The first time he came over he sa’d me (i was 6 he was 8) Ever since the first day he came over he taught me that what we were doing was okay and that it wouldn’t be okay if i told anybody. One of the days he took it a step further from playing with each other and decided he would try to have sex with me. I’ve not told anybody this story before and it’s hard for me to say it. He ended up fucking me when i was only 7. He would blackmail me into sucking him off and he would force me down on him if i refused. I’m a little older now but I still remember all of those days he fucked me or made me suck him off. Nobody knows about it but us… until now. A few weeks ago for 4-H we had a survival project to do. We spent the night in the woods and both of us happened to be in the same group. There was another kid with us but he fell asleep pretty quickly. I fell asleep shortly after and the one who had sa’d me in the past was still awake. I woke up shortly after to him spooning me. I thought nothing of it because so thought it was the other person thinking i was somebody else. After i fell back asleep i felt the one who sa’d me (let’s call him connor) grope my ass. I realised it was him and not the third student so i was petrified. I was confused and shocked on what happened and scared he would find out i was awake and do worse things to me. He ended up grabbing my hand and making me masterbait him using his own hand to move mine. He tried to fuck me but that didn’t end up working. I was petrified and scared so i didn’t say anything and i pretended i was asleep while there were tears coming out of my eyes. He ended up cumming in my hand that night. In the morning he acted just like how he usually does and he didn’t say a word to me as usual. He acted like nothing happened.

• July 25, 2023