I literally hate this fucking girl. She used to touch me inappropriately every single bloody day. I was her neighbor, and I was the age of 5. She did it for many years. I thought it was a game. Her name is Alexandra. I hope she's dead. I also never told anybody about it. Even my dad would abuse me at 2 months. Now I have a scar under my eye. He would punch me, and shake me. Fuck them. I self harmed in 5th-6th grade. My parents found out. I hate my parents. They yell at me all the time, they put all their anger out on me. I hope they go to Hell. Even my "friends" use me, and they bully me behind my back. I have nobody. I've been to fave schools, I've lived in 9 houses, and I haven't seen my biological mom in 7 years. I am literally going to kill myself.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023