I struggle with becoming obsessed with people. All I will do it talk about them, think about them, I am unable to be happy, or sad, or any emotion at all unless I am in that persons presence. I’ve been recently obsessed with my coach, and it’s not like weird obsessed. I don’t stalk him or anything. I just feel really empty when I’m not around him. But things are happening where I am not going to be able to be around him as much by the end of March. And it’s killing me. It’s killing me inside because I’m the one that’s being weird about it and I’m the one that never wants him to change. I want to see him every day so I can feel something. I notice everything about him. When he changes clothes, when he leaves halfway through practice. The shoes he is wearing. I have even copied some of his mannerisms. With things changing and my mental health taking a very steep downturn these past couple months I don’t know what to do because he is my stability. Ik it’s unhealthy. But it’s the truth and I want to not depend on him but the way I do that is either cutting off contact pretty much completely. Or finding someone else to obsess over.